illusion_is_mine: (Sandman: death)
Well this week was somewhat frustrating, but such is life.  I've been having some issues with money due to student loans, but I've been budgeting as much as I can.  No new video games for a little while anyway.  I also found out that the company that has my students loans is being sued by the federal government in a class action lawsuit.  I hope those fuckers loose the lawsuit, and I can some relief from these loans.  It'll probably take quite a few years before everything plays out.  Apparently a lot of people have been having issues with them, and they've committed fraud against a bunch of customers.   

That aside I went to pick up my niece from work the other day, and a small rock hit my windshield cracking it glass. D:  I have to figure out how I'm going to get that fixed.  Ugh, I swear it's so frustrating.  I'll have to call my insurance company, and see what they say about it.  

As for fandom type things I've been getting caught up on Dragon Ball Z.  I used my amazon gift card to buy Season 5 recently.  Also I've still been playing Fallout New Vegas, and I like it a lot more than Fallout 4.  It has more RPG elements than FO4, and isn't just mindless shooting just for the hell of it.  I also bought my friend Ocarina of Time for her DS, and she loves it.  I was glad I was able to get her gift to her on her birthday.  

I've also been playing lots of Nier Automata lately, and the plot is taking a very interesting turn.  I'm really enjoying the game, and I'm glad I bought it. 

My anxiety has been a bit better as of late.  I don't find myself getting anxious nearly as much.  I do wonder if I'm becoming apathetic towards people though.  I find myself having that "I don't give a shit" attitude a lot more lately than usual.  I asked my mom about it, and she said she doesn't think I'm becoming apathetic which is good.  I don't want to be, but some people really annoy me sometimes.  

Well that's all for now.  Here's a song I've had on repeat lately from the new Brand New record.  

illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: pinup girl)
 My grandpa's funeral turned out to be really nice.  He was a veteran that fought in Vietnam so he had a military burial, and they gave my aunt a US flag, and did the whole folding of the flag.  I will point out that religious funerals are always strange to me since I'm not religious at all.  I'm agnostic so I don't have a problem with it completely, but it's still strange to me.  I mean the eulogy the pastor gave didn't really count as a eulogy to me.  It was just telling people that they need to "get right" before their time comes.  I sort of have cognitive dissonance when it comes things like that.  Most people here are religious, and I can't say anything about it without it turning to an argument so I just keep it to myself.  

After the burial I decided to go home, and chill.  I'd had my fill of dealing with people all yesterday, and needed some alone time to sort out my thoughts.  I also played a bit of Nier Automata, and Fallout 4.  I'm not sure why I still play FO4 at this point because I think the story is pretty lame, but I guess I just want to finish the game, and loot  I also started playing Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga, and I've been enjoying it so far.  I feel like I'm finally getting the hang of the battle system in SMT games which makes me happy.  

As for Nier I kept getting my ass handed to me by this boss in particular.  I'm playing it in Normal mode, and this boss is still quite difficult.  I've almost got it though.  I think I'll try my hand it again today.  I plan on spending much needed quality time with this game for a while.  

illusion_is_mine: (Robert Smith)
 My grandfather passed away a couple of days ago.  I'm actually doing okay right now.  I think the funeral will be the hardest thing for me to deal with.  The funeral is next friday so I plan on taking next week off.  Along with that my brother has been acting stupid.  He was acting like he was going to fight my dad over something really dumb.  Basically all my brother cares about is money, and he doesn't have a job despite the fact he has 2 kids.  My dad went over my grandpa's house to get the keys to his van because my aunt told him to.  Needless to say my brother flipped out, and claimed that no one cares about him, and that he didn't get anything when my grandmother passed.  Wtf?  I mean I'd rather have my grandparents here than have money, but maybe that's just me.  He's always been a selfish POS tbh.  You can't choose your family unfortunately. 
illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: pinup girl)
This week has sort of been up and down.  My parents found out Sunday night that my grandfather isn't expected to live that long.  His kidney's are failing him, and he has a whole other slew of problems.  He's come out of really bad illnesses before so I'm hoping he recovers, and I'm trying to stay positive.  In the back of my mind though I've also been preparing for the worst.  

My friend called me that night I found out after I told her over text.  She told me the reason she hasn't been able to stay in contact is because she's had some deaths in the family, and her dog died.  She thought that I hated her, but I reassured her that I didn't hate her.  I figured that she had something serious going on in her family.  I'm glad we were able to reconnect, because I didn't know if she would contact me again.

All that aside I've been doing okay.  I've been mostly trying to take my mind off of everything by gaming, and reading.  I bought Sonic Mania recently, and I've been enjoying playing that.  It also made me want to play Sonic Colors so I plugged up the Wii, and played that along with Metroid Prime 3: Corruption, and Fallout 4 yesterday.  

Did anyone see the eclipse yesterday here in the US?  I manged to put together one of those shoebox pinhole viewers and got to see it.  It was pretty cool.  I'd never done something like that before so it was really enjoyable.  

Oh yeah, my car insurance company sent me a check yesterday.  I guess they won the case where they sued the company of the lady that hit me in that bad accident.  I wasn't expecting anything so I'm glad it all worked out in the end. :)

I hope everyone has a great week.
illusion_is_mine: (TR: Lara Croft)
     My mom decided to have my birthday dinner yesterday evening at Olive Garden after I'd gotten off work.  We got there around 6pm, and everybody was already there mostly.  It was super crowded which made a little anxious.  While we waited for a table I checked twitter for E3 updates since it already started.  We were seated soon after, and my niece Shelbi was unusually quiet for some reason.  My sister mentioned it was because she wasn't a fan of pasta, and she didn't know what to get.  We talked a bit about movies.  My mom, and I had just seen Wonder Woman, and recently Get Out so we talked about those movies.  

     The food finally came, and we ate.  My food was pretty good, but Shelbi wasn't too happy with hers because some of her food was cold.  She kept trying to get the waiter's attention, but he kept forgetting her salad dressing, and extra cheese.  To be fair it was really crowded so he probably had a bunch of tables to wait.  My sister mentioned an activity her, and her friends had recently done in which they went to a hotel played a game that was sort of like "Clue" in which you had to guess who the killer was.  It sounded super fun actually.  Apparently there were actors there, and they didn't know which people were actors so it played out like a live game of Clue.  We also talked about our upcoming trip to Panama that's coming up.  I'm really looking forward to that.  After that we paid for the dinner, and stood outside for a while and talked after my sister's boyfriend showed up to wish me a happy birthday.  Since I'd been to work that day I was really exhausted.  My sister gave me a $25 gift card to Target so mom, and I decided to make a trip to Target before we went home.  I picked up a shirt for my dad for father's day, a cute Mario/Yoshi shirt for myself, and PS4 dual controller charger.

    Now for E3 roundups.  The only panel I watched so far was Microsoft's panel talking about their new system coming out (XBox One X I believeit's called.)  They also talked about a bunch of exclusives for the system.  These are the games that I thought were interesting so far.  I think a lot of these are timed exclusives?  That's what I keep hearing anyway.    I'm mostly waiting for Sony's panel at 5pm today, and Nintendo's panel tomorrow.  I'm super hyped for any Nintendo Switch releases.  At first I wasn't too sure about all the Wii U ports being put on the Switch, but honestly more games is always a good thing.  I've never owned an Xbox system so I'm not sold on the Xbox One X tbh.  I've considered buying one of the older systems in the future though because of Half-Life 2, Halo, and a few other franchises that I've never played.  I'm really looking forward to seeing sony's exclusive announcements like maybe The Last of Us 2 since I really loved the first game.  We'll see what happens. :D  

I just watched Ubisoft, and Sony's conferences, and honestly Sony's was pretty lackluster.  Ubisoft actually had a lot of solid releases lined up this year.  Sony on the other hand only had 1 new game release for 2017 which was really a let down.  Their biggest titles down come out until 2018.  Needless to say these are the games that seem really interesting so far.  

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illusion_is_mine: (Default)
     I hope everyone enjoyed their mother's day weekend.  Mine was okay, but I had a bit of stress at work.  Remember that person at work that wouldn't leave me alone?  Yeah, she's still at it.  Yesterday when I was working the lights in our area went out.  It scared the crap out of me because my anxiety was really bad yesterday.  Needless to say when I looked up from my cubical I saw that creepy girl, along with another girl standing next to the light switch.  So she's harassing me when I work now?  At this point I'm going to go to my sister and tell her to set her straight and leave me the fuck alone.  I don't care why she's doing it at this point I just want her to stop.  I don't understand people like this at all.  I go to work, and don't bother anyone.  I know that she'll probably deny everything, but it's better to have my sister confront her since she's in management, and they're on friendly terms.  I actually told my sister about this previously, but she didn't take me seriously because "She's really nice."  Well she's nice to you, but she's an asshole to me.  Hopefully this will make her finally leave me the fuck alone.

    On a more positive note I bought my mom and Barnes and Nobels gift card for $25 since she likes reading on her tablet, and a really cute mother's day card.  They all went to my grandmother's house on mother's day, but I decided to go home since I was on edge yesterday.  I was so exhausted mentally from what happened at work I didn't have the energy to deal with anymore people.  

    Also I've been progressing in Persona 5 I'm glad to say.  I finally feel like I'm getting used to the gameplay now.  I've made a few confidants, and I feel like I'm finally forming bonds with them.  I've also been trying to finish Breath of the Wild, but I have one more minor boss to defeat before I head to Hyrule castle.  He ended up being tougher than I thought so I'm going to try to figure out a strategy and beat him today.  I also bought an Assassin's Creed game since the games were on sale on the Playstation store this previous weekend.  I bought Assassin's Creed Syndicate, and I'm really enjoying it so far.  Here's the trailer for the game.   I love steampunk stuff so this game is something I could really get into.

As for music I've been listening to Code Orange's "Forever", Siouxsie and the Banshee's "Superstition", The Creature's "Bestiary of", Balance and Composure "Separation", Title Fight "Hyperview", BTS "You Never Walk Alone", Chevelle "Wonder What's Next", Delain "The Human Contradiction", The Twilight Sad "No One Can Ever Know", and Depeche Mode "Songs of Faith and Devotion".  I need to do a post with my favorite albums I own on Vinyl now that I'm thinking about it.  It'll probably come in the near future.  

My birthday is in a few weeks!  I took that week off work, and I'm glad I did.  I will need that vacation from the stress of work considering what's been going on lately. 
illusion_is_mine: (link 2)
Work has been up and down lately.  I've been more productive overall, but today in the break room I heard this girl talking about me.  I don't want to get into the whole backstory, but basically she's been talking shit about me for a while now.  Apparently she hasn't gotten over the fact that I don't want to be her BFF.  I mean at one point I thought she was stalking me because she would always have the same breaks and lunches as me.  Now I'm not sure what her problem is I just wish she would leave me the hell alone.  People can be really weird sometimes.  

That aside I've been mostly playing Breath of the Wild, Persona 5, and Uncharted 4 in terms of gaming.  Persona 5 is really fun, and I'm getting the hang of the overall gameplay.  I'm also trying to make  Right now most of the kids hate me because I'm a "criminal", and they're scared of me or whatever.  I'm making progress though.  On BoTW I'm closer to finishing the game, and I finally obtained the Master Sword.  I was so proud of myself when I found it.  I actually got lost looking for the Lost Woods which was kind of funny.  On Uncharted 4 I'm driving a 4 wheeler through Madagascar which is pretty fun, and I get to kill bad guys which is always fun.  

My sister got a new puppy.  Her name is Sky, and she has really pretty blue eyes.  She's a white husky, and I believe she was rescued from a litter of puppies that were being neglected.  My sister is nursing her back to health, and she's still trying to get used to her new surroundings right now.  She brought her over our house the other day.  Apparently she loves my mom, and my mom basically held her like a  She's sort of shy, and still acts scared of people right now.  She likes to hide under the couch, but when my mom called her she came right out.  So she really likes my  

That's all for now.  
illusion_is_mine: (Haikyuu!! - Hinata)
 So this will be a short update of what's been going on with me lately.
  • My aunt left for Afghanistan last Friday.  Right now she's on the military base in El Paso so she hasn't left the country yet. She sent a group text to my sister, my mom, and a few other family members this morning saying that she wanted to come home, and that she didn't qualify for training.  She said things are really hectic on the military base with everything that's been happening, and that she doesn't want to go.  My sister and my cousin are talking about driving to El Paso to pick her up.  I do hope she can come home.  I was really worried when she mentioned where she would be going.  She sounds like she's trying to come back home so I'm glad that she probably won't be going to Afghanistan.  
  • I took advantage of the flash sale at the Playstation Store had over the weekend.  I ended up buying The Last of Us (Remastered), Dishonored (Definitive edition), and Wild Arms 3.  I also bought Blaster Master 0 for my Nintendo Switch.  I really love The Last of Us, Wild Arms 3, and Blaster Master 0 so far.  I'm also still playing Breath of the Wild, but I'm taking my time and just exploring stuff.
  • I watched One Punch Man, and Ranma 1/2 a bit yesterday.  I've been behind on anime so I enjoyed that quite a bit.  Ranma always cracked me up with how much trouble he would get himself into, or make Akane super pissed at him.  
  • As for music I've been listening to lots of Chelsea Wolfe lately.  If you haven't heard of her she's probably one of my favorite newer artists out right now.  I love how dark her music is, and the ambiance of it.  I think the guitar pedals add a nice effect to her overall sound.  Here's a video of her performing one of her songs off her newer album "Abyss" called "Survive".  You said you won't fall apart... )

illusion_is_mine: (Zelda)
 This week was exhausting for me.  I swear everyday I came home from work I went straight to sleep.  I'm not sure why I've been so tired, but today I'm feeling a bit better and less tired.  I think it was because this weekend we had that birthday dinner for my mom, and I ended up having to drive.  If there's one thing you should know about me it's that driving stresses me out a bit.  We ended up having to sit in traffic which was fine.  Apparently an SUV had turned over, and it looked like a bad accident.  I do hope that the people were okay.  I had a hard time finding the restaurant because they'd changed a lot of things since I'd been to that part of town.  I finally saw the sign while we were driving around, and proceeded to park.  After I parked someone pulled up right next to me giving me no time to react.  I was frustrated after that, but my mom told me later that the reason I had trouble parking was because there was a black truck already parked to my right that was parked wrong, and all over the line.  People here drive like idiots I swear.  That aside we had a great time at the restaurant for my mom's birthday. 

Other than that I did some drawing early yesterday morning, and it felt good.  I might post some of my doodles, or random drawings sometime whenever I get the chance to scan them.  

Oh and I got my passport in the mail for my trip.  I'm super exited about going to Panama now!  It's going to be fun.  :)

Also I've been listening to more music lately.  I got my spotify account back so now I can listen to new albums whenever they come on streaming.  I read somewhere that Tool was going to start putting there music on streaming services.  That's super awesome!  There are a few albums, and EP's of there's that I haven't listened to that I want to hear.  So I'm looking forward to that.  As always been listening to a lot of Deftones, and also Type O Negative, Paradise Lost, and some Lacuna Coil.  Speaking of LC they just put out a new video for one of my favorite tracks off their new album.  I like the video a lot.  They've been doing a lot of darker concepts with the newer album, and I like it a lot.  Also can Cristina get any more attractive?  I swear...that woman is so gorgeous.  Speaking of that my friend swears that I have a thing for Italian  I never thought about it, but she could be on to something. ;)

Someone asked to see my gaming setup so here are some pictures.  gaming setup pics )

illusion_is_mine: (Haikyuu!! - Hinata)
 I know it's been a while since I've  posted, but I'll update today with bullet points cause it's easier!  
  • My mom's birthday is friday, and my niece is planing a surprise party at a resturant called Bone Daddy's.  Now I asked my coworker about the place, and it turns out it similar to hooters?  I'm not sure why she picked that place...lmao.  Either way I get to see hot women walking around serving food so I'm definitely not opposed to it xD!   
  • My parents and I finally sent off for our passports, and we should be getting them in about a month.  I'm getting really excited about the Panama trip you guys!  It's coming up rather quickly.
  • I've been playing Xenoblade Chronicles, which is fun as hell.  I love the fighting system in that game.  I've also been playing Fallout 4, and I'm really enjoying that one a lot.  I found this excellent video by The Game Theorist where he does an interesting analysis of what happened to the people after the nuclear fallout.  
  • Spring is finally here!  I've had to take out my shorts, and capri pants because as you know the heat in Texas can be brutal.  It's mostly been comfortable t-shirts, and capris for me these days.
  • That strange girl that was sort of following me around at work hit on my sister when they went to a club.  I had to laugh when my mom told me because it was just predictable.  I mean I figured she wouldn't hit on her boss, but apparently she has no common sense at all whatsoever. 
  • I decided to get my mom a nice birthday card, and some money for her birthday.  She's been complaining about being broke so I figured money would be a great
  • My allergies have been kicking my ass, and I think the fact that spring is right around the corner isn't helping at all. :( 
  • That's all for now. :D
illusion_is_mine: (SOM: Patricia Morrison)
 This past week was exhausting.  Yesterday my family had a get together for my grandmother's birthday.  Her birthday was actually Saturday, and I called her and told her happy birthday.  She pretty happy that I called her.  My work week was exhausting, and one of our people was on vacation so we had a ton of work.  There is still that strange girl at work, but it seems she's finally getting the hint and starting to leave me alone.  A lot of times I feel like I'm misunderstood because I don't fit anyone's stereotype of what they think I should be.  I guess I'm in my own head too much.  Ah well. 

When I came home, and my family was all gathered at my house I felt a bit more exhausted.  I was overall tired from work so I just went straight to my room after speaking to everyone.  When my grandma came I spoke, and retreated back to my room to play video games.  I ended up playing Resident Evil 4 for a few hours, and then a bit of Uncharted 4 for a while.  My niece came and watched me play for a bit, and concluded that I wasn't going to win because I kept  

Resident Evil 4 is really creepy I have to say.  Also those zombies in that game are really smart, and always think of ways to out smart me it seems xD!  

On a side note I have been practicing guitar a bit more lately.  These are the songs I'm currently learning/working on right now.  Most of these I have really worked on, and have got the majority of the song down.  I still need to practice a bit on the rhythm for the Bauhaus song, but I think I have a good grasp of how to play it.  I really love playing that Cure song once I got it.  It's one of my favorite tracks from that album, and it's enjoyable to play. :)

Title Fight - Dizzy
Bauhaus - All We Ever Wanted Was Everything (acoustic)
Balance and Composure - Quake
Siouxsie and the Banshees - Painted Bird
Title Fight - Murder Your Memory
The Cure - A Forest

Here's a picture of my guitar by the way.  I wasn't sure if I posted it here, but there ya go. :D

As for other music stuff  how awesome was Bruno Mar's cover of Prince's "Let's Go Crazy" last night at the grammys?  He really nailed it.  <3

My week

Dec. 12th, 2016 09:18 am
illusion_is_mine: (Default)
 Aside from what's been happening in the previous post I'd say everything has been going well.  I went to the doctor last week for a follow up, and she put me on a water pill because she didn't think my blood pressure was low enough.  I'm not used to taking so much medication, but if it helps then I'm all for it.

As for the annoying girl at work I haven't seen her for the past few days so that was a relief.  

I'm glad I got most of my Christmas shopping out of the way.  I made plans with my friend to exchange gifts on the 19th so that should be fun.  I'm also off work 3 days after Christmas so I'm glad for the break.  I've been feeling somewhat anxious this past week so it will be good to have a break from the stress of day to day life, and just enjoy the holidays.  

I've also got a quite a few anime to catch up on that I bought from Rightstuf during their holiday sale.  I've been catching up on Dragon Ball Z.  I'm at the end of Season 3 right now, and it's gotten really crazy.  

As for music I've been addicted to the new White Lies album "Friends" lately.  I've initially got into them thanks to [personal profile] evils recommending a song of theirs from their first album.  This new album is a huge improvement from their last album "Big TV."  I love Harry Mcveigh's vocals so much, and their overall style.  Here are the videos for "Morning in LA", and "Take it out on me."  The latter being a bit weird lol, but I like it.  Also I just realized that the video for "Morning in LA" is a nod to Killing Joke's "Love Like Blood" music video.  I'm a huge fan of Killing Joke so I noticed it right away.  I wonder if anyone else noticed the reference.  Take it out on me...i'm in love with the feeling )
illusion_is_mine: (OPM: Saitama)
 So I figured I'd post a regular entry about what's been going on with me.  These past few weeks the weather has finally turned cold.  I for one really love the fall/winter seasons.  The only thing I don't like is me possibly getting sick.  I almost got sick a couple of days ago, but my mom basically forced me to take cold meds until all my symptoms passed.  These past few days I've been trying to avoid the cold weather, and stay indoors aside from going to work.  

I've finished most of my Christmas shopping I'm glad to say.  I also finished wrapping gifts yesterday which felt good.  I tend to put it off until the last minute, but I decided to finish wrapping everything yesterday.  Also it was really cold, and raining a lot yesterday.  Our mail man didn't show up until about 6:30 pm yesterday evening which is very unusual.  So I had to run outside in the cold, wet, and rainy weather (also it gets darker earlier so it looked later than it was), and get the mail out of the mailbox because no one else in my house wants to do it for some reason.  That aside I've been doing okay.

I've been getting back into gaming lately which is cool.  I'm playing Titanfall for PC, and I'm enjoying it a lot.  I don't have a lot of experience with PC gaming, but it's a lot more enjoyable than I expected it to be.  I also saw a bit of the trailer for Final Fantasy 15, and it looks amazing!  I used to be a huge fan of the franchise since FF7.  I'm really bad at RPG's, but I did try to play that one when I was younger.  I especially enjoyed 7 because I liked the characters, and the overall gameplay.  

Aside from gaming I've been watching the show Black Mirror on netflix, and It's really interesting.  It's like a modern take on The Twilight Zone with the focus being on technology.  I would say it's a dark, suspense, thriller type of show.  My favorite so far has been "San Junipero" from season 3 because yay for lesbian romance themes, and it was really sweet yet sad.  I also liked "White Christmas", and "Nosedive".  I highly recommend checking it out if your into shows with darker/horror type themes.  Now I'll go back to watching another episode of the show because this particular one is really interesting.  
illusion_is_mine: (Default)
I hope everyone enjoyed their thanksgiving.  Mine was actually pretty good.  The only thing that really happened was my aunt freaking out because my cousin wanted to bring her new boyfriend to thanksgiving dinner.  She was pissed at my cousin because "she didn't formally introduce him to her."  So because of that she'd already decided she didn't like the guy.  They had a few words on facebook, and that was that.  She told my cousin that if she was going to show up with him then she couldn't come.  Wtf?  My sister wasn't happy about that, and told her she was being very petty.  Luckily my cousin ended up coming anyway.  My aunt left before she showed up which wasn't surprising.  

That was the only family drama we had, which was pretty good.  That aside I actually enjoyed myself, and ended up talking with my family most of the time.  I usually just stay in my room the whole time, but I was pretty sociable this time around with my family.  I think that the meds I'm taking really have been helping me with social situations, and my overall issues with anxiety.  

I've been doing a lot of Christmas shopping between this week, and last week, and I'm glad that I got a lot of it done.  I bought myself 3 video games.  Sonic Colors for my Wii, and Soul Calibur 2 for the PS2, and Titanfall for PC.  I'm trying to get back into gaming.  It's been really fun so far!  Sonic Colors is really awesome, and a lot more fun than I could have imagined.  I'm still waiting on Soul Calibur 2 to come in the mail.  The postman almost forgot to deliver several of our packages yesterday which was annoying.  He came back twice, and delivered everything which was a relief.  I bought 3 anime box from Right Stuff since they were also having a sale.  That package came yesterday.  The anime I bought were Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex the complete collection, Saiyuki the complete collection, and New Dominion Tank Police the series.  My download of Titanfall is almost done so I'm going to play that as soon as it finishes.  I'm a sucker for first person shooters.  My early experience with FPS's started with Metal Gear Solid, Max PayneGoldeneye, and Doom when I was younger.  I'd say those were good introduction to those type of games.   

I've been pretty much avoiding the news media, and politics in general for the sake of my mental health.  I'm aware of all the things that are happening, but I'm trying not to focus on it.  I've found that prolonged exposure to negative media really has a bad effect on my mental health.  It's caused me to have many anxiety attacks, and other mental health related issues.  Therefore I've been trying to find healthy alternatives to keep me in an overall positive state of mind.  It's been working pretty well so far.  Also I bought these really cute pikachu slippers.  

Well my game is almost finished downloading.  Later guys. :)
illusion_is_mine: (inuyasha)
Since I'm not sure if i'll be tied up with family tomorrow or not I wanted to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving if you celebrate it.  

I got a little bit of Christmas shopping done today with my mom.  I bought my cousin's 2 sons Avengers action figures that I'm sure they'll love, my friend some really cute Pikachu socks that were on sale, as well as my friend's mom some Harry Potter socks since I remembered she was a huge fan.  I also bought myself a few things.  I found the cutest Pokemon tank top, and some really cute Pikachu slippers.  I also bought a Darth Vader beanie that was only $3 which was a steal.  I'll have to take pictures when I get the chance.  

I finally got the check from that Insurance company, and it was what I did a little bit of my Christmas shopping with.  I'm just glad to get a few gifts out of the way.  It feels good.

As for other things I've been really stressed about the political climate around here lately.  I decided to deactivate my Facebook page for a week or so because a lot of stuff people post on there triggered my anxiety quite a bit.  I'm just so tired of all the depressing news everywhere about Trump's election, and all the horrible hate crimes that have been happening.  Since it's the holidays I figured it would be best for me to take a break from the news, Facebook, and anything else that triggers my anxiety for a while.  My blood pressure was actually up yesterday because I was stressing so much about political stuff.  I've also been having some annoying side effects from my blood pressure medication.  Mainly lots of sweating, rapid heart beat, and just feeling exhausted.  If it doesn't improve I'll notify my doctor about the side effects.  I'll probably tell her anyway since I have an appointment on the 7th of December.  

Aside from that I've been doing good.  I've been catching up on reading Red Rising, Game of Thrones, and other books.  I've been also re-watching "Record of Lodoss War", "Kino's Journey", and a few other random anime titles.  I watched a movie on Netflix last night called "Hush" due to a friend's recommendation, and it was really good.  

I helped my mom make an apple pie earlier today for tomorrow.  It turned out pretty good!  I also helped her with some of her other cooking she had to do.  Anyway I think I'm going to go do some reading.  I hope everyone enjoys the holiday.  :)
illusion_is_mine: (OPM: Genos)
So in this post I'll talk about what's been going on with me.  Today I received a call from the Insurance company of the woman who hit me in that accident I was in a couple of months ago.  They finally settled everything, and decided they would finally pay me.  They didn't give me as much as I'd hoped, but honestly I'm just glad that this whole things is over with.  I'd gotten to the point where I just didn't want to drag it out any longer than I had to.  They finally admitted their client caused the accident, which was all I wanted in the first place.  I don't understand why they had to drag things out, but that's insurance companies for you.  

Today I went to the store with my mom to pick up a few things.  She had to get a few things for Thanksgiving next week.  Our family always wants to have Thanksgiving at our house.  I'm just glad Christmas is going to be at my sister's house at least.  I can only deal with some members of my family in small doses.  

As far as my meds go I've been trying to get used to my new dosage of Cymbalta, and my new blood pressure medicine.  They both make me tired so it's a struggle, but I'm still able to function.  

As for music I've been listening to the new Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds album "Skeleton Tree", and it's really good!  I'm a fan of this band's music so I like quite a few of their albums, and this one is no exception.  This is a track off the album called "Magneto", and it's probably one of my favorites off the album.  Enjoy.Read more... )
illusion_is_mine: (OPM: Genos)
First of all I'd like to welcome the people I added from LJ.  :)

So today was good. My mom and I met up with my sister at a local seafood restaurant, and ate lunch. I joked with my sister that she sure does come to this particular restaurant a lot, and she mentioned that they were having a special on one of the dishes on the menu. We had a nice chat about people, and how to deal with other people judging you. She told me to just be myself, and not to "give a fuck" about what other people think about me. My sister swears a lot btw lol, it's just one of her quirks. I ended up getting chick strips, and fries because I'm not really that crazy about seafood. They were actually really good. I was surprised because we were at a seafood restaurant, but they had some really good chicken strips.

After that we went to Target so I could pick up a few things, and I realized that the seemingly healthy food in the deli isn't always that healthy after looking at the nutrition facts. So I got some Halloween cookies because why not, a shirt, and a denim vest that was on sale. They also had some cookies and cream pocky that seemed like it might be tasty so I bought some.

I've started reading a book I've had for a while, but just now decided to read call "The Forever War" by Joe Haldema, and it's really interesting. My friend bought it for me a few years ago, but I've just now started reading it.  It's really good so far.  It's pretty dark since it's about war.  I have a few books on my reading list that I need to catch up on.  I just bought Red Rising for my kindle because the plot seemed like something I would enjoy.  I'm a sucker for dark, dystopian, post-apocalyptic type novels actually.  I did actually read The Hunger Games series when it came out, and I enjoyed it mostly except for the last book Mockingjay.  My mom always says I need to read happier stories, but then again she reads dark paranormal romance so she's one to talk.  
illusion_is_mine: (SOM: Patricia Morrison)
 This week was okay, but mostly exhausting.  I actually crashed last night at about 9pm.  The night before last I was asleep, and my parents were gone out.  All of a sudden at 2am the phone rings, and of course it's an anonymous caller.  I sighed as I stared at the caller ID, and turned over to try to go back to sleep.  Unfortunately I was only able to get a few hours of sleep before I had to go to work the next morning.  Needless to say I was a zombie most of the day, and I kept yawning all day long.  One of my coworkers saw that I started yawning and she's like "No Ashley, don't do that" lol.  I was like "Look some anonymous caller called the house at 2am so needless to say I'm tired." And she just laughed and walked off. 

I also realized that when I'm tired my sarcasm is increases significantly.  I had my coworker laughing the day before because the supervisor on shift had us looking for something, and I was just like.

"They're making us do this because they don't want to do it!  I mean who would want to do this anyway." *exasperated sigh*  

Anyway besides an exhausting work day on Saturday my week was fine.  

I was dressed up in my gothic finery yesterday because I could have sworn that they mentioned we had to dress business casual, but my job is full of fail and miscommunication.  Needless to say we didn't have to dress up because they got the days mixed up.  I just shrugged and told my coworker at least I was still comfortable.  After I left work yesterday I came home, and tried to check emails.  Afterwards I tried to watch some DBZ but i just crashed.  When I woke up it was almost 8pm and my niece Erica was there.  She had just gotten back from the state fair, and told us about it.  She's been worried about her cousin, my other niece Shelbi, lately because she just seems to be angry all the time these days.  She told me that she felt like it was because she was still dealing with her brother's (my nephew) passing from last year.  She's still got a lot of anger about what happened, and she never really went to therapy for it.  I told her that maybe Shelbi needs to go talk to someone about her anger issues and she agreed.  I don't think she ever really dealt with her grief and that might have something to do with her being angry, and taking it out on other people. 
illusion_is_mine: (CB: Faye)
 So I got a call from my doctor today while I was on break at work, and we discussed how my blood pressure was doing lately.  She decided it would be best to put me on a small dose of blood pressure medicine.  It's only about 25mg I believe so that's not to bad.  Plus she told me to break it in half for the first 2 weeks just to see how I react to it.  She mentioned that she felt like it was hereditary since I'm not overweight, and I've been eating relatively healthy lately.  

I had some other things happen this week.  It  was some person being stupid, and harassing my mom on her cell phone.  My dad ended up calling the phone company and having both their numbers changed since the person kept harassing my mom, and constantly texting her.  It was crazy, but we finally got it fixed.  To be honest my dad thinks this woman he used to work with is stalking him.  That's the person that was sending my mom text messages.  I'll go into what happened in my next post.  It gives me such a migraine just thinking about it....ugh.

As for fandom things I bought a copy of X-Men Apocalypse so my mom could see it, and because I'm actually a die-hard fan of the comics.  I did enjoy the last 3 movies more-so than the first 3.  I hated the plot to the first 3 X-Men movies because they changed so much of the original story.  X-Men Apocalypse however ended up being pretty good.  I heard they're going to churn out another Wolverine movie which I'm sort of meh about.  I will admit that while I used to really like his character that's not really the case anymore.  My favorite characters are probably Storm, Nightcrawler, and Jean Grey if they would quit killing her off XD!  

As far as anime goes I'm finally finished with Dragonball, and I really loved it.  I was amused to see Goku, and Chi Chi getting married, and everything.  I'm going to start DBZ from the beginning so we'll see how that goes.  Also [personal profile] rosemile I started watching one of the recs you gave me and Monthly Girls Nozaki-kun is really funny!  Thanks for the recs.  I still need to check out a few of the other shows you recommended.  I still need to catch up with Haikyuu as well since I'm almost done with season one.  Yeah I know I'm behind but I'll get there xD!  I'm behind on a lot of anime actually, but I'll catch up when I can.  

Anyway all that aside I really like this song, and video.  I've been into this band for a little while, and I think they have a nice 90's midwestern emo vibe to them.   As for other music I've been listening to recently here's a screen shot from my iTunes recently added playlist. 


Aug. 29th, 2016 09:56 am
illusion_is_mine: (NGE: Misato)
 This week has been an emotional rollercoaster of sorts.  I didn't get that promotion that I applied for.  I had an interview, and everything but it simply came down to them choosing a candidate that had actual experience with that particular position.  That's what he told me anyway.  I was pretty bummed about it, but I also think it's a sign that I need to look for another job.  I don't see any growth in my current job, and I need to be somewhere that I can see myself moving forward rather than staying stagnant.   Needless to say I'm going to be looking for another job.  Preferably one that pays me more money than my current job.  The person that interviewed me did say he would pass on my resume to a graphic design friend of his because he was really impressed with it.  Hopefully that works out.  I'm not putting too much stock into it though.  

In other news the AC in our house went out Saturday evening.  My dad called a guy he knows that fixes AC units to come and look at ours, and it ended up my parents had to buy a whole new unit.  It made sense because the AC unit we had was actually 30 years old.  The guy was surprised that it lasted as long as it did.  We finally got it fixed today.  I was so glad because it's no fun sitting in a hot house.  We were somewhat lucky that it wasn't the hottest day of the year so it was bearable.  Sleeping was a bit harder, and my mom didn't get any sleep last night.  I slept okay, but It was incredibly uncomfortable sleeping without any AC.  I'm so glad it's fixed today because Texas heat is no joke at all.  

One good thing that happened is that I trained this guy in my department, and we ended up having a lot in common as far as music tastes goes.  He's sort of the nerdy type, and people at the job don't really like him that much.  I don't get it though because he's not that bad.  People at my job are so judgmental to be honest.  That's another reason I want to look for another job.  They hired all these new people, and I'm just not feeling it at all.  Everyone forms their own little cliques, and if you're even a little outside what's considered "normal" they don't want anything to do with you.  Honestly that's fine by me because I don't care for them anyway.  I just mostly stay to myself.  

My mom, and I had a civil discussion about religion last week.  My mom is very religious, but I'm glad that she finally see's that I don't have the same perspective on things and doesn't hate me for it.  It made me realize how lucky I am to have parents that accept me fully for who I am.  I especially realized that when I came out to my mom.  I know a lot of people (esp LGBT people) don't always have parents that are that accepting.  It makes me feel very grateful for my parents. 


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I'm a 32 year old woman. I'm an artist, and I'm into the Gothic subculture. Things that I enjoy include but are not limited to 80's Music, Reading, Drawing, Animation, Playing bass guitar, Gothic rock, indie music, horror films, anime, comics, video games, and sci-fi novels. I don't know what I'd do without music, and art. I listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees way more than I should.