christmas recap and friendship issues
Dec. 28th, 2015 10:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
illusion_is_mineHello everyone! I hope everyone enjoyed the Christmas holiday. My Christmas went well.
I ended up getting some really good gifts. My sister bought everyone presents when she went on her short vacation from New York. She bought me an awesome hoodie, and purse that's very me. I ended up giving her a gift card since I really didn't know what to get her. Also she's very picky when it comes to name brands so I figured she could buy what she wanted with the gift card. The main thing I usually dread about holidays is cleaning up after everyone leaves, but my cousin helped me so it wasn't too bad at all.
My friend was supposed to show up on Christmas Eve so we could exchange gifts, but she sent me a text saying she couldn't make it. Apparently she was doing testing for a new job she applied for, and she had to pick up her cousin. I'm trying not to get upset about it, but honestly she always does this. It's so frustrating trying to be in a friendship with someone when you feel like it's one-sided. I feel like I do a lot of the work in the friendship, and if I didn't we would just drift apart. I've talked with my therapist about it, but I don't have a solution. Sometimes I think it would be better if we just went our separate ways, but I do think she's trying (I hope anyway.) I'm not too sure, but I guess I would be lying if I said it didn't bother me. I really miss my best friend that moved away a couple of years ago. Things haven't been the same since she left. Honestly I don't think I've met anyone else that I could call a best friend besides my friend that moved away. I just don't connect with people at all, and it's so damn frustrating. Along with dealing with my grief that's one of the main reasons I'm going to therapy. Having social anxiety fucking sucks. :(
I had to work the day after Christmas which sucks, but I got through it. Either way more money is always good I suppose. Well that's about all for this post.
I ended up getting some really good gifts. My sister bought everyone presents when she went on her short vacation from New York. She bought me an awesome hoodie, and purse that's very me. I ended up giving her a gift card since I really didn't know what to get her. Also she's very picky when it comes to name brands so I figured she could buy what she wanted with the gift card. The main thing I usually dread about holidays is cleaning up after everyone leaves, but my cousin helped me so it wasn't too bad at all.
My friend was supposed to show up on Christmas Eve so we could exchange gifts, but she sent me a text saying she couldn't make it. Apparently she was doing testing for a new job she applied for, and she had to pick up her cousin. I'm trying not to get upset about it, but honestly she always does this. It's so frustrating trying to be in a friendship with someone when you feel like it's one-sided. I feel like I do a lot of the work in the friendship, and if I didn't we would just drift apart. I've talked with my therapist about it, but I don't have a solution. Sometimes I think it would be better if we just went our separate ways, but I do think she's trying (I hope anyway.) I'm not too sure, but I guess I would be lying if I said it didn't bother me. I really miss my best friend that moved away a couple of years ago. Things haven't been the same since she left. Honestly I don't think I've met anyone else that I could call a best friend besides my friend that moved away. I just don't connect with people at all, and it's so damn frustrating. Along with dealing with my grief that's one of the main reasons I'm going to therapy. Having social anxiety fucking sucks. :(
I had to work the day after Christmas which sucks, but I got through it. Either way more money is always good I suppose. Well that's about all for this post.
