illusion_is_mine: (Wonder Woman)
 Hey folks,

I know it's been forever, but considering everything that's been happening I figured everyone was having a rough time these days.  How is everyone?  I'm doing okay despite everything going on with COVID19.  My job is essential so I've still had to go into work which is kinda scary.  

Other than that it's been lots of video games, because no one can really go anywhere.  I recently got Resident Evil 3 Remake which is a really polished, yet slightly flawed version of the original game.  I've been enjoying it so far.  As for other games I also got Final Fantasy 7 Remake which I absolutely love so far!  When the opening cinematic started in Midgar I got kind of emotional.  The original FF7 was one of my first JRPG's so that game is very special to me.  It's been a great experience playing a re-imagined version of that game with modern day graphics.

As for real life things I've been mainly just trying to stay safe, stay at home when I can, and spending time with family and friends.  I hope you all are doing well.  I'm more active on twitter as (irradiatedblues) if you guys want to see what I'm up to these days.  

I'm alive!

Nov. 5th, 2019 11:35 am
illusion_is_mine: (Robert Smith)
Hey folks,

Truth be told I haven't really been motivated to post anything since I last posted which has been a while. I figured I would update about what's been going on with me. I'm still alive and kicking somehow even though life tries to throw me a few lemons every now and then.

As for what I've been into lately it's the same old things for the most part. I watched this movie around Halloween time, and I enjoyed it quite a bit.

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I have to say it was very unsettling, which something I go for when it comes to horror type movies. I really enjoyed it though. I'm looking forward to seeing what Jordan Peele has to offer in his future film endeavors.

As for other things I've still been into gaming, but not so much into Fallout these days. As you might be aware of Bethesda (the game studio that makes the current fallout games), has been sort of beating the franchise into the ground with Fallout 76. I did play it for a little while, but I got really burned out on it after starting a 2nd character. I've mostly been playing The Outer Worlds, which is a game that was created by some of the guys who did the original Fallout titles (Fallout 1, and 2.) That game is fantastic, and I've been loving it so far.

I've also been listening to a ton of different music like usual, but a lot of post-punk stuff.

I'm getting ready for the holidays, but I haven't started Christmas shopping yet. I'm dreading it tbh, because it's so financially draining buying Christmas presents. I've decided to only shop for immediate family, and friends this year. That seems to be the way to go this year. 

I do have some good news.  That annoying creepy coworker that wouldn't leave me alone quit about a few months ago.  Good riddance I say...lmao. 



 
illusion_is_mine: (Siouxsie)
Hey all,

     I know it's been a long while, but honestly I haven't felt like posting an entry in a while.  I'll post what's been going on with me lately.  

     I've been doing rather well lately.  I got my tax money about a week or so ago, and I've been really focusing on saving money, and budgeting a lot better.  I've also been doing my usual gaming, and what not.  I bought Devil May Cry 5, and Metro Exodus not too long ago, and I've been enjoying playing those games.  

     As for work it's been going okay.  A few of my coworkers are hardcore Michael Jackson fans so I ended up getting into a debate with them about the whole "Leaving Neverland" thing.  My coworkers are convinced that he didn't abuse those kids, but I don't agree at all especially after seeing the documentary.  I think MJ was a really good con-man, and he was good at convincing people that he was a good person, but he had another side to him.  I do believe he was a pedophile so that makes my opinion very unpopular with my coworkers.  That's fine with me because at least I have sympathy for the victims of CSA because it's a huge problem in our society.  I get people enjoy his music, but people honestly need to take their bias out of it, and acknowledge that MJ's relationships with children was not innocent.  

    That aside I've been doing well.  I've had a few stressful weeks off and on, but I'm at a good place mentally right now.  

     
illusion_is_mine: (HQ!: Noya)
 Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays to all of you that celebrate it.  I hope you all have a great day. :)
illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: pinup girl)
I started my vacation this week from work, and I've been mostly taking it easy, and staying in since it's been quite cold lately.  I'll post a few quick updates about what I've been up to.
  • I bought Fallout 76 a few days ago, and despite how many poor reviews the game is getting I've been enjoying it a lot.  I have to say this is the first multiplayer game I've played where majority of the people I met in the game were friendly, and helpful.  I did have one experience with someone being a jerk, but I've had more good experiences than bad. 

  • I met a guy last night when my character was exploring Morgantown Airport, and he ended up being pretty cool.  He was frustrated because he told me that I was the only person that actually talked to him over the mic.  He said everyone else had their mics off, and he felt like the game is about teamwork, and helping each other.  We completed the quest, and eventually his game froze, and that was the last I saw of him.  I've met a few nice people throughout my gameplay, and I'm pleasantly surprised with how nice most of the fallout fans are.  If any of you guys are playing the game on Xbox One and wants to team up you can send me a message.  My gamertag is: EternalNoir1985

  • Thanksgiving is next week, and we're having it at our house.  I can't say I'm thrilled about it because most of the time I always have to clean up when everyone leaves, but I'll cross that bridge when I get to it I guess.  My family, and holidays usually equals family drama, but hopefully not.  

  • My mom has been sick with the flu most of the week, but she's finally doing a lot better today.  I've been making sure to check up on her, and see how she's been doing throughout the day.  

  • Well that's all for now.  I'm going to watch some video game streams, and probably go play some more Fallout 76.  Later guys.


illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: pinup girl)
 

There's so many things for me to update about so I'll just use bullet points to see that I don't forget anything.
  • I got my new 4K TV, and I love it.  Gaming on it is such a wonderful experience compared to my old TV.  I've been really enjoying playing games, and watching TV on it.

  • I bought an XBox One S mainly to play the Fallout 76 beta early, and watch my favorite shows in 4k.  I'm enjoying it so far.  It took me a while to get used to the menus because it's just like Windows 10, but other than that I like it.  I actually prefer the Xbox One controller to the PS4 dual shock 4 controller.  I've always felt that way, but only just realized it more-so since I've gotten the new console.  Fallout 4 actually runs better for me on the One S than it does on my PS4 so that's a huge plus.  I'm really excited for the Beta for 76, and I'll let you guys know how it goes.  

  • Other than gaming I've been getting a bit of guitar practice in off and on, and it's starting to feel more natural to play now.  I have the bandscore for the first Dir en grey album so I've been learning how to play bits and pieces of a few of those songs.  It feels good to enjoy playing guitar more now than when I first started.

  • I've been getting into heavier music here lately for some reason.  I've been listening to lots of Atmospheric Black Metal, and lots of post-punk here lately.  I've always enjoyed dark alternative music, but now I've learned to embrace my love of heavier music.  I think I just really like music in low tones because I'm a bass player.  That could be a thing.  I feel like I can relate a lot more to darker music mainly because of the lyrics.  

  • I've concluded that it's impossible for me to make friends at work.  I've pretty much given up forming any meaningful friendships outside of work.  I just don't have much in common with a lot of my coworkers I guess because I'm a creative type, and most folks at my just want to talk about themselves, or their kids or whatever.  It's really tough trying to make new friends as an adult.  I've found it to be nearly impossible for me to bond with people my age.  It could be the depression, and social anxiety, but it's not like I'm not trying at all.  I just don't get people tbh.  I've accepted that it's unlikely I'll make new friends anytime soon.  I've gotten to the point where I'm tired of trying.  I'm tired of trying to figure out people when they don't accept me for who I am.  
illusion_is_mine: (TR: Lara Croft)
Hey guys,

Long time no post I know. I've been somewhat busy for the most part, but I finally got a chance to sit down and make a new post. As you can see I've been playing lots of Shadow of the Tomb Raider, and I've been loving it so far. This game honestly feels more like the classic Tomb Raider games than any of the reboot titles so far. In this game Lara has kick-started the apocalypse by accident, and has to make things right. Aka typical Lara Croft moment. Here's a nice gif from the game.







As for other things I've been mostly working, and doing normal boring adult stuff. I bought a few vinyl records recently. I was surprised this online independent record shop had albums by Toe, a Japanese post-rock band I've been into for years. I was happy to find that both records were limited edition colored vinyl, and they both came with digital downloads. I also bought a limited edition version of the new Zeal & Ardor record "Stranger Fruit." I have a picture of it in all it's beautiful glory. I love purple so this edition was a must buy for me, and the record is one of my favorite metal albums of 2018 so far.

Stranger fruit... )

As for other things I went to the doctor last week for my follow up appointment, and the doctor said my blood pressure was really good.  I've been trying to watch what I eat, and avoid too much fast food.  I'm glad to see it's finally paying off.  I plan to start exercising, but I need to build up the motivation to do it.  It's tough the older you get, but I really do need to for my health.  I also need to start doing some more artwork, and updating my deviant art page regularly.  I think I should take it one step at a time and try not to push myself too hard.  I'll figure it all out I guess.

I guess that's all for now.  


illusion_is_mine: (Fire Emblem)
I'll post a few quick updates just to let you guys know what's going on with me.
  •      My dad's surgery went well. My mom has been trying to get him to rest, but my dad is one of those types that doesn't know how to sit still, and rest so it's been a struggle. My mom took him to his follow up doctor's appointment today. I'm glad he's doing better.  I went to visit him in the hospital last week the day of his surgery, and he was doing so well that they sent him home within a couple of days.  :)
  •      A guy at work that I'd never really even talked to much asked me out the other day. He had a weird vibe about him, and physically he wasn't my type at all so I turned him down. He got all huffy when I mentioned we could be friends so that told me what his intentions were. I told him my dad just had surgery, and I was going through a difficult time, but he didn't seem to care. JFC I'm looking for someone who clearly shows empathy for my situation, not a potential serial killer.  Later on that evening my sister came over, and when I mentioned that this guy asked me out she told me that he was really mean to his ex-girlfriend, and that he came off as mean to her.  Looks like I dodged a bullet tbh.  
 
  •      I've been playing lots of games. I recently purchased "Infamous: Second Son", along with a year subscription to Playstation plus. I'm so hyped for Fallout 76, and now I feel like I'm ready to jump into the beta when it launches in October.

  • I've been saving some money which is always good. I almost bought a new laptop, but mine still works, and I don't really NEED a new computer at the moment. I wanted a gaming laptop, but that would mean buying more games for different hardware, and that's not something I really want right now. I just got a 2DS XL so I feel like that, along with my Switch, and my other systems will keep me satisfied for a while. Instead I bought some music. I bought the new Interpol album, along with a few albums by the Japanese post-rock band Toe on vinyl. Speaking of the new Interpol record here's a video from it featuring Kristen Stewart which is kinda cool. It looks like they just told her to do whatever the fuck she wants, and she did...lmao.

 
illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: pinup girl)
 I figured I'd post a few quick updates to let you guys know what's been going on with me.  
  • My dad has his surgery this friday, and I'm a bit anxious about it.  This will be a pretty serious surgery so his recovery will be longer, but hopefully everything turns out okay.
  • Things have been going well at work lately.  The only thing that's been going on outside the norm is that creepy guy finally stopped talking to me.  I think that's a good thing.  I think I finally pissed him off enough that he just leaves me alone...haha.  
  • I beat one game in my backlog!  I know that it's just one among many but hey it's something.  The game was Tomb Raider (2011), and I'm glad I finally finished it.  Now I can really dive into Octopath Travler on my Switch.
  • I've been listening to tons of music lately.  I've been really feeling nostalgic about 90's ska/punk so I've been listening to a lot of that.  I used to love that stuff as a teen and I just sort of fell off as I got older.  Bands like The English Beat, No Doubt (mostly Tragic Kingdom), The Clash, The Selector, Streetlight Manifesto, Black Flag, and Catch 22 to name a few bands.  
  • I've also been listening to a lot of goth music, but that's nothing new...lol
  • I joined discord a few months ago, and I've really been enjoying it!  I'm glad I found some great servers with friendly people that I can chat with on the regular. 
  • Finally saw Avengers: Infinity War, and I enjoyed it.  I didn't love it as much as most people, but I'm not super into the Avengers either so I figured I wouldn't go crazy over it.  I do want to know what happens in the next movie since this one felt like it was unfinished.  I'm assuming they're making another movie, but I'm not sure XD! 
illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: Vault Boy)
Hey guys,  
Just a few updates

This week was okay for the most part.  My mom seems to have caught a cold over the past few days. I'm going to head to the store in a bit to pick up a few things for her, and myself.

As for work the creepy guy has been acting weird again.  I mostly haven't been talking to him for the past week because he's been avoiding me and what not.  I'm honestly glad he's been avoiding me because he sort of annoys me.  That being said I talked to another coworker, and apparently creepy guy is super rude to other people at work, and is just overall unpleasant.  This doesn't surprise me so I think I'll just start avoiding him completely from now on.  

As for games I've been playing my 2DS a lot lately.  I dived into Ocarina of Time, and I've really been enjoying it quite a bit.  I also started playing Earthbound, and I forgot how great that game was when I played it in the past.  I love the hilarious humor, and the quirky adorable music in this game.  I also got Shin Megami Tensei IV which I haven't started yet, but I'm looking forward to it.  I do need to start Octopath Traveler, but I haven't yet since I'm playing other JRPGS and they tend to be very long.  

I need to start some new drawings for my portfolio soon.  I have some drawings I've started, but I don't have anything completely yet.  I do plan on working on that soon.

I've been reading A Handmaiden's Tale, and it's a very good, but bizarre story.  I do find that because of what happens in the book I have a hard time putting it down once I start reading it.  
illusion_is_mine: (Haikyuu!! - Hinata)
 This week was okay I guess.  My dad did end up coming home last Wednesday, and he's going to be having his surgery in a month or so.  It's not as soon as he wanted, but the surgeon is on vacation so that's why they couldn't do it sooner.  He's been doing good, and has been off work so he's had a chance to rest, and recover.  

As for me I've been good.  I had a coworker that annoyed the hell out of me the other day.  The creepy guy that won't leave me alone he an insufferable personality, and apparently he can't enjoy things that take him outside his comfort zone.  He's also super competitive, and immature.  I've actually considered avoiding him altogether because I feel like it's a waste of time talking to someone like him.  Even though we both like video games that's honestly the only thing we have in common, and we have completely different taste in everything else.  Plus he creeps me out, and he legit wears the same clothes everyday.  I usually don't care about stuff like that, but it's like dude you have a job you can afford to care about how you look.  I'm starting to wish I would have never talked to him in the first place.  I even gave him a sort of *hint*, and told him I seem to attract "strange people", and he goes "I'm not that strange", and my response was "If you say so...".  

An old coworker texted me this morning, and mentioned we should have lunch one day.  I was really glad to hear from her because we ended up getting along really well when she worked here, and I'd been wondering what she was up to.  She told me I'd been on her mind which was nice to hear. :)

As for other things I've been reading a new manga I just started called "Black Clover", and I'm really digging it.  I love all the characters, and it's about magic so of course I'm all in.  

As for music I've been listening to all sorts of different stuff.  I honestly couldn't pin point it to one specific genre or specific artists since my tastes has been all over the place lately.  I've been listening to The Fin's newest album, and I've been digging it.  Here's a song from one of their previous albums that I really like called "Till Dawn"

In other news I'm really excited about the new Tomb Raider game coming out this year "Shadow of the Tomb Raider."  I wasn't too excited at first, but after seeing this video it made my hype level go up quite a bit.  I know a lot of people don't care for the TR reboots, but I honestly love them.  I do not miss the old Tomb Raider games at all, and I grew up on them.  The new games are a breath of fresh air tbh.  



illusion_is_mine: (link 2)
 Hey guys,

This past Sunday ended up being somewhat hectic for me.  My niece asked my mom, and I to go out to eat with her for her birthday, and we had a good time. 

After we came home my dad informed my mom that she needed to take him through emergency.  Apparently he'd been peeing blood, and had been since yesterday and just never said anything.  So my mom took him through emergency, and he's currently being treated.  They're going to let him come home today, but he has to have surgery so this won't happen again.  I'm just glad she managed to get him to the hospital in time.  I've been pretty much on my own for the past couple of days.  My mom ended up staying at the hospital with my dad so I've been taking care of things around the house.  

On a lighter note I'm thinking about getting a 2DS XL pretty soon.  This is the one I'm getting since I'm a huge Zelda fan, and I love the design of the Hylian shield.  I've been wanting one for a while, and I'm now I'll be able to get it.  I mainly wanted one to play a bunch of the classic Nintendo stuff in one little continent handheld device.  I have a Switch, but since Nintendo stated they won't be doing the Virtual Console I figured I would get a 2DS XL to play classic Nintendo titles.  

Also I applied to Id Software (which is under Bethesda Softworks), for an animation position last week.  They posted they were hiring, and I jumped on it the next day.  The studio is in Richardson, which isn't too far from where I live.  Wish me luck guys!  I didn't plan on applying to a video game industry job, but it's a great opportunity, and I love video games.  I'm also a huge fan of that studio, and a lot of their titles so I figured why not at least try.  If I don't get it I won't be too disappointed.  It's a very competitive industry, and there are so many talented people applying for these jobs.  Well, that's all for now.   

illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: Vault Boy)
Hello all,

I've recently discovered that I tend to get depressed around holidays, and this past 4th of July was no exception. Luckily for me my family celebrated the 4th a few days earlier because many folks in my family had to work that day (including me. :() I've went through a bit of a rough depressive episode last week. I will say today I'm feeling a lot better though. I think I realized how difficult it is, and always has been for me to make friends. I feel like it's even more difficult ever since I've hit my 30's. People are usually settled into their friend groups at this point, and that tends to leave me in the forever alone camp. I will say that this has motivated me to do productive things like finally put some effort into learning Japanese. I have tons of books, and have bookmarked some great videos on learning the language. It also helps having a ton of Japanese music, and entertainment content to motivate me into actually following through with it.

All that sad stuff aside my ex-crush Nick actually held me a conversation yesterday. I think he assumed that me and creepy boy were together or something? I don't know, but I guess I look so sad an pitiful during my break he decided to talk to me lmao. I'm open to being friends with him because he seems like a cool guy, and we have some things in common. He also has a type of sarcastic dark humor that I can sort of get behind. Creepy guy on the other hand annoys the shit out of me, but he won't leave me alone. Then some days he completely ignores me, and honestly I could care less. The only reason he follows me around like a lost puppy is because I asked him ONE question about if he liked a particular video game. He's been clinging to me ever since, and I haven't been able to get rid of the guy. I actually switch around my breaks and lunches to avoid him if possible. He creeps me out honestly, and I wish he'd leave me be.

As for music I've been listening to a lot of different things. I saw this video on my twitter feed this morning, and I have to post it cause Chelsea Wolfe is awesome, and a wonderful gothy goddess. This particular song has a nice gothic rock vibe. I must warn you that the video is creepy, but that's her usual style.


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illusion_is_mine: (Haikyuu!! - Hinata)
Today I decided to take a mental health day off work to recuperate from my long week. I'm glad I did because I ended up not getting much sleep last night. I went to bed around 8pm, and ended up waking up around midnight, and not going back to sleep until around 3am I believe. At one point I started reading to see if that would help.

Truth be told I was a bit depressed yesterday, but after listening to a bit of music I started to feel a little bit better. It's amazing how music can really make me feel better. My mom told me once that when I was first born they would put a radio in my crib to help me sleep. It seems that music still has the same effect on me as an adult.

As for what I've been listening to it's been mainly Utada Hikaru, Lacuna Coil, Chelsea Wolfe, Self Defense Family, Tiger's Jaw, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Oceans of Slumber, Zeal and Ardor, Jaurim, Trivium, and Dir en grey. Speaking of music I've Zeal & Ardor's new album on repeat lately. If you don't know who they are they are a unique black metal band that fuses elements of black metal with gospel, and slave chants. It's one of the most interesting bands I've heard this year.  This song is from their previous album, but I think the video is really cool so here ya go. I like how the first youtube comment is "I guess I'm a satanist now" XD!  



illusion_is_mine: (P5: Protagonist)
 It's been a strange week.  Do you guys remember that nerdy/creepy guy that wouldn't leave me alone?  Well he's ignoring me now, and the guy I had a on crush a while back is talking to me again.  Why are men like this?  I mean I didn't do anything different, and this whole situation happens.  I guess you don't have to do anything.  Straight men are very strange to be honest.  

I mean I'd be lying if I didn't acknowledge that I was somewhat happy the crush started talking to me, but that's besides the point.  He noticed (I guess?)  I was wearing a Persona 5 shirt, and he's like "Hey Ashley, that's an awesome shirt!"  First of all I didn't think he knew me name, second of all It's cool he likes Persona 5, but I'm still very cautious about this whole thing.  I don't feel like I can trust most straight men, and their intentions towards me.  I mean I'm not against being friends with guys, but they're so goddam fickle it's unreal.  Many of them have no idea what the hell they want weather it be friendship, relationship or otherwise.  I don't like it when people play games with me so I'm over it tbh.  I'll just keep doing me, and remain cautious.  

On a lighter note I ended up pre-ordering Fallout 76 for the beta.  Bethesda is still leaving many of us Fallout fans in the dark about a lot of the game's mechanics, but I figure since I'm playing the beta I should be able to decide weather I enjoy it or not from that.  It's a multiplayer survival rpg apparently, but we'll see how that all plays out.  I've actually found a like-minded group of people on discord to play the game with when it comes out in November so I'm excited.  I'll admit the map of post-apocalyptic West Virginia looks really beautiful, and the No Clip doc on how they made the game won me over.  Here's the trailer Bethesda showed at the e3 conference for the game.  The song they used in the trailer is really perfect.  

 
illusion_is_mine: (P5: Protagonist)
     So this week was my first week back from my vacation, and it was alright I guess?  Last Friday was really rough for me because it seemed like my anxiety, and depression were trying to get the better of me.  It was also that way because a male coworker that I talk all the time to basically gave me the cold shoulder for no reason that day.  He has an annoying, and unpleasant personality anyway so I wasn't surprised that he turned out to be a POS.  Of course the next day he came in all chipper, and talkative like he didn't just brush me off the day before.  I swear he's super toxic, and my current goal is avoid him as much as possible from now on.  For a little backstory he's the guy I've mentioned a few times that acts like he's obsessed with me despite me making it pretty clear that I have no interest in him.  

     That aside I've been getting more guitar practice in since my surgery, and it feels good to start playing again.  It's a lot easier to just pick up the acoustic, and play a few songs since it's not as heavy as the electric guitar.  

    Despite everything I've been doing good overall.  My birthday turned out great, and it was nice to spend time with family and friends.  I'm looking forward to E3 this week to hear about new Nintendo Switch games.  I'm also cautiously optimistic about Bethesda's conference.  I'm curious about the new Fallout 76 game, but I'm not sure if it's a must buy yet until I find out more about it.  Also with my birthday money I ended up buying the Black Panther movie on DVD, and Red Dead Redemption the Game of the Year Edition.  I haven't re-watched Black Panther yet, but I did start Red Dead, and it's a really cool game. 

   As for music I've been listening to lots of metal lately.  It's probably due to my mood this past week, but yeah.  Mostly I've been listening to Before the Dawn, Chelsea Wolfe, Dir en grey, Oceans of Slumber, The Birthday Massacre, and Buck-Tick.  I've had this Ocean's of Slumber song on repeat lately.  I really love their new album a ton.  They sort of remind me of The Gathering a bit which is pretty neat. 

   Also happy Pride month!  :D

illusion_is_mine: (Default)
 I started out this morning by playing a bit of Dark Souls Remastered for a bit.  My family is planning a small birthday dinner at an Italian restaurant I've never been to so it should be fun.  My friend Elisabeth took me out for lunch yesterday, and we looked around in the book store a bit.  I bought a few Xbox 360 games, and we talked about different book series we were into.  Overall I've been enjoying my vacation from work this week, and it's nice to spend time with family, and friends.  I hope you all are doing well. 


illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: pinup girl)
  •      This week was okay, and mother's day came and went.  I bought my mom some new shoes for mother's day, and she ended up liking them quite a bit.  
  •      As for me I do get my stitches removed this week.  Honestly I'm glad because I feel like it will start healing a bit better once they're out.  So that happens tomorrow.  I actually get leave work early tomorrow because of that.  Hopefully I won't be too sore tomorrow, but I expect to be in a little bit of pain afterwards.
  •      I've been playing lots of God of War, Farcry 5, and Fallout 3.  I'm finally getting towards the conclusion of Fallout 3, and I have to say that it's one of my favorite Fallout games so far.  I haven't completed any of the others, but I do have Fallout 1, 3, New Vegas, and 4, and I've played quite a bit of most of them except for FO1.  I do plan on going back to Fallout 1, and 2 eventually fore lore purposes so I can get a better grasp on the story.  I'm currently doing an extensive playthrough of Fallout 3 just to take a break from Farcry 5, and God of War from time to time. 
  •      God of War looks so fantastic, and plays so well on my PS4 slim.  I kinda wish I had a Pro so I could play it at it's max settings, but yeah.  The story to this game is really interesting, and since I don't know too much about Norse Mythology I've been enjoying the lore to the game.  The "Dad of Boy" jokes lately I've been seeing around the internet are pretty accurate, and highly amusing. 
  •      I saw a post on ONTD that mentioned Haley Kiyoko made some racists tweets about black people, and that made me feel very disappointed in her as a black woman.  I feel like we always get shit on by most folks in mainstream media, and society in general so I was sad to see her racist bs tweets.  Even though they were from 9 years ago that doesn't make them sting any less.  Needless to say she's pretty much cancelled in my book.  I'm so tired of all the antiblack bs I see celebrities spout these days.  It's so emotionally draining to be quite honest.  That's the main reason why I try to avoid a lot of mainstream media because a lot of it is so damaging, and harmful. 
  •      I did play a bit of Xenoblade Chronicles 2 on my Switch since I feel like I've been neglecting the system lately.  I need to put more time into that game because it's a really huge game.  I will say that I've been enjoying it so far.  I still have quite a ways to go, but it's a fun little JRPG.  
  •      Since I mentioned Fallout 3 I figured I'd share one of the weird quest that I ended up playing last night.  Also that little girl is so creepy despite the fact that she's not actually a little girl XD!  If you don't want spoilers for any of the plot in Fallout 3 I'd avoid watching this.  Otherwise enjoy this creepy nightmare of a simulation that is "Tranquility Lane."
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Recovery

May. 8th, 2018 08:51 am
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Hey guys.  I'm in the recovering stage after my surgery, and I'm doing better.  I mostly slept all day after I had the surgery, and the few days after that were rough.  This week is a lot better though because I'm in a lot less pain.  I get my stitches taken out on the 17th so it should be smooth sailing after that.  The scar still hurts a little bit, but it's not nearly as bad as it was right after the surgery. 

I've mostly been playing lots of Farcry 5, and God of War.  I've been progressing pretty well through both games.  I've been having a blast playing them both so far.

As for music I've been listening to a bit of everything.  I bought the album "Boxer" by The National and I've been digging it so far.  Also Haley Kiyoko's newest album "Expectations" has been on heavy rotation on my iPod lately.  I love her whole aesthetic, and her videos are really gorgeous.  The women in her videos are all really hot.  The girl has good taste xD!


illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: Vault Boy)
 I'm having a day surgery tomorrow for a cyst that's in my back.  I didn't mention it previously because I didn't realize it was coming up so soon.  The truth is I'm very nervous about the whole thing.  The doctors were watching it, and said that it looked like it was benign, and that it wasn't cancerous.  Despite that I told them I wanted it removed anyway because it was bothering me way too often.  Needless to say I will probably be in a bit of pain after the procedure.  I'm not sure how much pain, but I've been trying not to think about it.  I'll be sure to post an update when I'm feeling better to let you all know how it went, and how I'm doing. 


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I'm a 32 year old woman. I'm an artist, and I'm into the Gothic subculture. Things that I enjoy include but are not limited to 80's Music, Reading, Drawing, Animation, Playing bass guitar, Gothic rock, indie music, horror films, anime, comics, video games, and sci-fi novels. I don't know what I'd do without music, and art. I listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees way more than I should.