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deeper issues...
Jan. 5th, 2016 01:53 pmHello everyone!
This will be a pretty serious post. I told my therapist today that I've been questioning my sexuality. She believes that this is the root of my depression, and that if I don't address it then I can't really deal with my depression. Me questioning my sexuality has been something I've experienced since high-school. If you know anything about living in the Southern United States you know how extremely homophobic people can be in the is part of the country. Honestly it's something that I haven't really dealt with until now. I just kept putting it in the back of my mind. That maybe I just don't like any of the guys at my high-school, or maybe I'll meet the right guy eventually. But here lately I've been considering that this may have been the issue all along.
My therapist told me that when I told her that I looked like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I'm still not sure exactly what to classify myself as far as my sexual identity goes, but I do know that I'm not strictly heterosexual. I've only disclosed this on here, and to my therapist. My family, or friends have no idea about any of this. I've done such a good job of hiding it that I don't believe anyone has picked up on it yet. I do want to come out to some people, but honestly I'm scared. This is something that I just constantly put in the back of my mind hoping it would go away. My family has said, and still says some very homophobic shit that I just can't deal with most of the time. It's the main reason I haven't told anyone else. So I guess this post will be the first time I've addressed this. I'm still trying to figure everything out, and I'm not sure about my identity yet. I just need all the support I can get honestly.
This will be a pretty serious post. I told my therapist today that I've been questioning my sexuality. She believes that this is the root of my depression, and that if I don't address it then I can't really deal with my depression. Me questioning my sexuality has been something I've experienced since high-school. If you know anything about living in the Southern United States you know how extremely homophobic people can be in the is part of the country. Honestly it's something that I haven't really dealt with until now. I just kept putting it in the back of my mind. That maybe I just don't like any of the guys at my high-school, or maybe I'll meet the right guy eventually. But here lately I've been considering that this may have been the issue all along.
My therapist told me that when I told her that I looked like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I'm still not sure exactly what to classify myself as far as my sexual identity goes, but I do know that I'm not strictly heterosexual. I've only disclosed this on here, and to my therapist. My family, or friends have no idea about any of this. I've done such a good job of hiding it that I don't believe anyone has picked up on it yet. I do want to come out to some people, but honestly I'm scared. This is something that I just constantly put in the back of my mind hoping it would go away. My family has said, and still says some very homophobic shit that I just can't deal with most of the time. It's the main reason I haven't told anyone else. So I guess this post will be the first time I've addressed this. I'm still trying to figure everything out, and I'm not sure about my identity yet. I just need all the support I can get honestly.
