unnecessary stress

[illusion_is_mine]

 So I want to talk about my situation with the guy I have a crush on at work.  Which honestly is a non-situation, but being my anxiety-ridden self I'm making it more than what it is.  For the past few days he hasn't been speaking to me which I find sort of strange.  I'm not sure if I come off as sort of distant when I talk to him, but it's not because I want to be.  It's definitely my social anxiety.  I sort of freeze up when he confronts me, and I never know what to say.  My mom gave me some pretty good advice which was to treat him like everyone else, and then the nervousness would dissipate some.  So when I go to work this week if he doesn't say anything to me I'll speak to him, and ask him how he's doing.  I'll try that and see if it works.  

Honestly, I hate feeling like this because it's the sort of thing that keeps me up at night.  I never want to feel like I'm being mean, or rude to people.  It effects me on a deeper level.  

On a lighter note, I've been playing lots of Fallout 4, and Borderlands the Pre-Sequel lately.  I realized that I needed to finish the main quest on FO4 so I started playing it again.  I bought the season pass a while back so that increased the amount of things I need to do in game.  Overall I'm enjoying it though.  Fallout has easily become one of my favorite game franchises.  I'm a sucker for anything post-apocalyptic related anyway.  I also need to finish Fallout 3, and New Vegas as well. 

Well that's all for now.  Here have a song. :)

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Comments

[heartonsnow]

You know I also have social anxiety, I have given up on men but I used to be really nervous of men if I fancied them.

In a way, if you don't feel comfortable with them they are not as right for you as you think, no?

[illusion_is_mine]

That could be a possibility. That is something that I've thought about. I do still find myself attracted to some men, but I'd love to pursue relationships with women tbh. I figure I'm young and I still have time to figure these things out.

[heartonsnow]

I should have said men or women. It's just who you click with really!!!

[illusion_is_mine]

Yup, it really is.

[kehleyr]

Ah yes... I do understand the whole social anxiety bit..., so *much strength to you* <3

[illusion_is_mine]

Yeah, I really hate having social anxiety. I deal with it a lot better than I used to in the past though.