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There's so many things for me to update about so I'll just use bullet points to see that I don't forget anything.
- I got my new 4K TV, and I love it. Gaming on it is such a wonderful experience compared to my old TV. I've been really enjoying playing games, and watching TV on it.
- I bought an XBox One S mainly to play the Fallout 76 beta early, and watch my favorite shows in 4k. I'm enjoying it so far. It took me a while to get used to the menus because it's just like Windows 10, but other than that I like it. I actually prefer the Xbox One controller to the PS4 dual shock 4 controller. I've always felt that way, but only just realized it more-so since I've gotten the new console. Fallout 4 actually runs better for me on the One S than it does on my PS4 so that's a huge plus. I'm really excited for the Beta for 76, and I'll let you guys know how it goes.
- Other than gaming I've been getting a bit of guitar practice in off and on, and it's starting to feel more natural to play now. I have the bandscore for the first Dir en grey album so I've been learning how to play bits and pieces of a few of those songs. It feels good to enjoy playing guitar more now than when I first started.
- I've been getting into heavier music here lately for some reason. I've been listening to lots of Atmospheric Black Metal, and lots of post-punk here lately. I've always enjoyed dark alternative music, but now I've learned to embrace my love of heavier music. I think I just really like music in low tones because I'm a bass player. That could be a thing. I feel like I can relate a lot more to darker music mainly because of the lyrics.
- I've concluded that it's impossible for me to make friends at work. I've pretty much given up forming any meaningful friendships outside of work. I just don't have much in common with a lot of my coworkers I guess because I'm a creative type, and most folks at my just want to talk about themselves, or their kids or whatever. It's really tough trying to make new friends as an adult. I've found it to be nearly impossible for me to bond with people my age. It could be the depression, and social anxiety, but it's not like I'm not trying at all. I just don't get people tbh. I've accepted that it's unlikely I'll make new friends anytime soon. I've gotten to the point where I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of trying to figure out people when they don't accept me for who I am.
