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 Hello to the new people I added from the LJ friending meme!  I mostly tend to just post about whatever is going on with me during that week so here we go.

I found out Monday that my grandfather is in the hospital on life support.  My mom mentioned previously that she felt like he would go downhill after my grandmother died, and that's what seems to be happening.  I really don't want to have to deal with another death in the family so I'm trying to stay optimistic.  It's really hard sometimes though.  To be honest I felt like my grandfather died years ago even though he's still here.  He has dementia, and he would sometimes not remember us, and it was really difficult.  

Now for not so sad news I had a facebook video chat with my best friend on Monday night, and it was really fun!  We haven't seen each other since she moved away, and it was wonderful seeing her face again.  We did the video chat because she lost her cell phone, and we figured that would be a good way for us to keep in touch until she got a new one.  It was a really great feeling seeing her face again. :)

I've been keeping up with new X-Files episodes, and last weeks episode was so sad!  I won't give any spoilers in case someone else is watching it.  Also I finally watched the anime One Punch Man, and it was hilarious!  It's a series that I'll definitely continue watching.  I also watched this movie called "We Need to Talk About Kevin" based off of a book.  It was really good, and very sad.  Here's the plot if anyone is interested.  Well that's all for now.  
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     This week was okay.  My step-sister stayed over on Saturday, and had a bit of an episode.  For anyone that doesn't know my step-sister has down syndrome, and autism.  She can't really communicate with people, but she does understand what your saying when you tell her to do things, It just takes her longer to respond.  Anyway I was telling her that I would turn on a DVD she wanted to watch after she went to take her bath.  I don't know what happened but she sort of screamed at me really loudly, and scared the shit out of me.  Anyone who knows me knows that I hate confrontation, and violence of any kind.  I know I listen to really heavy, abrasive music but I sort of think of it as an outlet to channel some of my negative emotions in a more positive way.  

     Anyway I ran out of the room, and explained to my mom what happened.  We're not sure why she got upset because I didn't raise my voice or anything.  We've always had a rocky relationship since her mom didn't bring her around much.  I told my mom I think she's jealous of the relationship I have with my dad, or possibly my mom.  Her mother died of cancer about a year ago, and she had a really hard time dealing with things after that.  My mom also told me that my older sister told her she was jealous of me because I went to college, and she never got to go.  I was slightly surprised to hear that, but it was something I was already aware of.  The reason my mother didn't want to send my sister off to college mainly had to do with my sister being irresponsible then.  My mom felt like she wouldn't take care of her bills, and didn't want to take out any loans to pay for her to go.  I do wish people would understand that while it might seem like I had things easy that I had my own demons I was dealing with.  Quite frankly they don't know the half of it, but yeah.  As for my step-sister I think part of it is her illness is getting worse.  She's been having more outbursts like that lately mainly directed at me.  It's frustrating.  

     As far as other things the X-Files new season aired last night!  I almost missed it, but I saw it just as it was about to come on and I ran in my room and changed the channel to FOX.  It was really good.  OMG my feels considering how long it's been since I've watched The X-Files.  I have to go back and watch some of the older episodes now.  I've also been re-watching some old episodes of Sailor Moon for nostalgia purposes.  I remember when that aired on TV years ago.  Good times.  

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I'm a 32 year old woman. I'm an artist, and I'm into the Gothic subculture. Things that I enjoy include but are not limited to 80's Music, Reading, Drawing, Animation, Playing bass guitar, Gothic rock, indie music, horror films, anime, comics, video games, and sci-fi novels. I don't know what I'd do without music, and art. I listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees way more than I should.