illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: Vault Boy)
 I'm having a day surgery tomorrow for a cyst that's in my back.  I didn't mention it previously because I didn't realize it was coming up so soon.  The truth is I'm very nervous about the whole thing.  The doctors were watching it, and said that it looked like it was benign, and that it wasn't cancerous.  Despite that I told them I wanted it removed anyway because it was bothering me way too often.  Needless to say I will probably be in a bit of pain after the procedure.  I'm not sure how much pain, but I've been trying not to think about it.  I'll be sure to post an update when I'm feeling better to let you all know how it went, and how I'm doing. 


illusion_is_mine: (Wonder Woman)
Well I've been sick with a nasty stomach virus for the past few days.  Today is the first day that I don't feel completely awful so I think it's run it's course.  I basically slept most of the day yesterday, and last night.  I'm feeling a bit better today at least.  

As for other things I've started playing Half-Life 2 on steam, and I'm enjoying it so far.  I've been meaning to play this game for a while since I enjoy quite a few fps games, but I don't have an Xbox, or a PS3 so I figured I'd play it on PC.  It's probably one of the most enjoyable experiences I've had with an older fps game.  I played it for a few hours yesterday, and plan on playing it a bit today.

As for other things I bought a new set of drawing pencils so I plan on drawing more stuff again.  I go through long periods of artist block due to depression, but I finally feel like I want to start drawing again.  Art school actually sort of burned me out on doing my own work as well since I was working so hard to finish my portfolio.  I'm glad I got past that phase a bit, and I plan to start some new projects soon.

That's all for now.  I'm going to go browse youtube, and play a few games.  


illusion_is_mine: (Default)
 Yesterday was a huge bummer.  I think I caught a virus from someone at work yesterday, and I ended up feeling really sick.  I did do my 8 hour shift at work, but I went home around 2:30 pm so I could recover at home.  I came home, and took some stomach medicine, and took a much needed nap.  After that I woke up and tried to game a bit, but I didn't really have the strength to play video games for long.  I ended up falling asleep early after eating dinner.  

I'm feeling much better today thankfully.  My stomach still feels weird so I've tried not to eat anything heavy today.  I really want ice cream, and some cheese cake my mom made last night, but my stomach says no.  

Today I played Final Fantasy XV for most of the day, and ended up getting relatively far along in the game.  Noctis and crew have really grown on me so far, especially Prompto.  His carefree, happy attitude is very enduring.  Also Ignis is hilarious with his whole "Ha!  I've found a new recipe!"  proclamation in the most random of places in the game...lol.  

That aside I've also been playing Dragon Quest: Heroes (for the PS4), and Devil May Cry on the PS2.  Both games are really enjoyable.  I'd been meaning to check out the Devil May Cry series for years, but never gotten around to it until recently.  I also bought a copy of Chrono Cross for the PS1.  I've been getting into lots of rpg games lately.  I've been enjoying those type of games way more than fps games lately.  I've always been fond of games with a good plot, and an interesting story.  

Well I'm going to go try to feel better.  Later. 
illusion_is_mine: (Angel Sanctuary)
I realized I forgot to mention something about the me going to the doctor earlier this week.  The doctor has been worried about my blood pressure.  She knows that I have a family history of high-blood pressure, but she wants to really cut down on salt in my food.  She mentioned that TV dinners have a lot of salt.  I went to the grocery store today, and I realized how true that was.  I was taking them for my lunches at work, but now I'm going to go for healthier food.  I bought some fruit, sub sandwiches, and a salad to take this week.  I know it's not going to improve over night, but I'm too young to have issues with high-blood pressure.  I think the major factor is my family has a history of high-blood pressure so that's probably why I have it.  

I'll be going with my parents to look at getting a new car next week.  The car that I actually want to check out is a 2016 Hyundai Sonata.  Now my previous car was a Hyundai, but this one has all the bells and whistles that I want and everything I've been looking for in a new car.  Plus it will be something that I can afford to pay on every month which is good.  I've already been looking at a few cars online, and I will keep my options opened.  I checked my credit score the yesterday, and now I feel pretty confident when going in and negotiating a price for a car.  The reason I like the Sonata is because the rental car that the car rental place rented out to me ended up being a Hyundai Sonata.  I think I fell in love with the car immediately.  I drives so smoothly, and it has great breaks along with automatic locks which my previous car didn't have.  Needless to say I think I have my heart set on that car...lol. 

It's been insanely hot here lately.  I'm not really a fan of summer, and I could do without the excessive heat.  I've been trying to stay cool, and drink a lot of water.  I've also been wearing lighter colors every now and then to balance out the heat.  I bought this top recently from Killstar that should balance out the heat.  It's sheer, and really airy and comfortable.  I'm not fond of everything Killstar sells since they tend to have stuff that I find rather excessive [1, 2], but some of their more simple designs are nice.  I'm not really into wearing any occult symbols because I think it's sort of try-hard, and cliche.  I've been seeing younger goths doing that nowadays, and it's not my cup of tea.  I think that If you wear those symbols you should at least know what it means, or be aware of what it represents to others.  Plus there are way too many resources to look these things up.  The goth subculture has nothing to do with any particular religious beliefs.  Everyone assumes that goths are satanist, and what not but that's because of all the stereotypes you see about them on TV.  Most of them aren't based on any sort of truth, and are sensationalized like crazy.  

Last night I watched the movie "Jacob's Ladder", since I heard they're remaking it.  Hollywood remakes everything these days, but yeah.  Anyway, it was a really good movie.  It made me really depressed because of how it ended, but it was really good.  It was also really scary, and it takes a lot to scare me.  Here's the trailer. 

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I had my follow up appointment with my doctor today, and I found out that I have high cholesterol, and that my blood pressure is up.  They said that I should change my eating habits.  I do agree that I probably eat too much unhealthy stuff like pasta, pizza, etc so I'm up for changing my eating habits.  I think If I eat healthier I feel a lot better, and not so sluggish all the time.  I think this change will benefit me a lot, and I'm not too bummed out about it.  I do like to eat unhealthy stuff, but I'm more concerned with my health so I'm willing to change.  I can still eat some of the things I like, but try to moderate how much unhealthy stuff I'm eating.  I'm going to do my best. :) 

My friend and I went to the bookstore last week.  I told her the issues I was having with questioning my sexual orientation, and she was really supportive.  She told me that I was lucky to have the family support I have, because everyone didn't have that.  I agreed.  I feel lucky to have family that supports me being myself, and doesn't try to change me.  I actually bought quite a few things, and I'll probably post pics later.

On my way to the doctor this morning I realized just how confusing downtown Dallas is.  I mean they're doing construction all over the place, and there are a ton of one way streets.  It's so very confusing if you don't travel through there very often.  I did sort of get a little lost on my way to the doctor, but I knew where I was and managed to find the building.    Well that's all for now.  I'll update with some of the things I bought in the next post. 
illusion_is_mine: (Siouxsie)
     So I woke up this morning and realized that my throat was somewhat sore.  I'm hoping that I'm not getting sick.  I avoided getting sick all last year so if I get sick I know I will be utterly miserable.  I do act like a complete child when I'm sick for some reason...lol.  I will try to take some meds, and try to fight this before it blows up into a full blown cold, flu, or whatever the hell this is.

     I've been dealing with feeling anxious a lot better than I thought I would.  It seems like little things have been getting to me, but I'm getting through it.
 
     I had a slight mishap with my baby cousin.  My mom had to rush over my grandmother's house to check up on her because my brother upset her.  Apparently he left his son over her house despite the fact that she had to go to the doctor.  My grandfather was there but he's also in bad health so he was asleep.  The baby basically had to fend for himself.  I hate it when my brother does shit like that knowing that my grandmother is as sick as she is.  He doesn't think about anyone but himself.
 
     That aside, my mom left me with my baby cousin which was fine until she started crying.  I could not for the life of me figure out why she was crying.  She didn't need to be changed, and we were just sitting there watching TV, and she just starts crying.  I immediately try to call my mom, but she doesn't answer her phone.  My saving grace was my sister arriving just in time.  At that point I was scared, and I was glad she came.  She picked her up, and she stopped crying.  I'll just conclude that I know nothing when it comes to dealing with small children...lol.  It turns out she was sick, and wasn't feeling well and just wanted to be held.  
 
     As for music I've been addicted to the new Enter Shikari album.  It's funny since they're not usually a band I would be into due to their style overall, but I'm really digging their new album.  I'm in the process of listening to a few new releases this week.  The new Motorama album is great!  Motorama is a post-punk band from Russia that I've been listening to since their album "Alps."  I've always enjoyed the basslines in their songs, and the feel of their music.  I also need to listen to the new Bjork album.  I have it on my computer but I've yet to listen to it xD!  I also need to catch up on my Japanese indie music releases.  The only one I've listened to so far is the new Ling Toshite Shigure (凛として時雨) best of album, as well as their new single.  
 

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I'm a 32 year old woman. I'm an artist, and I'm into the Gothic subculture. Things that I enjoy include but are not limited to 80's Music, Reading, Drawing, Animation, Playing bass guitar, Gothic rock, indie music, horror films, anime, comics, video games, and sci-fi novels. I don't know what I'd do without music, and art. I listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees way more than I should.