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 Today I got my car serviced, and afterwards I decided to take a trip to the used book store.  I love going to the book store to see what type of gems I might luck upon.  I actually saw a few really cool video games, but they apparently knew how much they were worth so I steered clear of buying any games.  I looked around for a bit until I picked up a few things.  

The guy behind the counter told me he liked my shirt.  I had on my Resident Evil "Umbrella Corporation" shirt.  He also remarked that I had great taste in games, and he joked that the store would be in trouble if I kept buying stuff xD!  Needless to say I had a good day out at the book store by myself.  

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I found a cool double disc compilation of Loudness's music.  Loudness is a Japanese 80's heavy metal band that I enjoy.  Their album "Thunder in the East" is a huge favorite of mine in terms of 80's heavy metal.  I bought "Something Wicked This Way Comes" by Ray Bradbury because I've always wanted to read it.  I also got "Mythmaker" by Skinny Puppy, Self Titled by Deftones, and The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess official strategy guide.  I've been playing that game a lot lately, and I really felt like I needed the strategy guide.  Plus it has awesome color pictures, and official artwork.  

I also bought myself, and my parents some food from Chipotle so my mom wouldn't have to cook.  She cooks everyday for us so I figured I would give her a break.  :)

My friend and I are supposed to go see "Logan" this Saturday after work.  I'm really looking forward to it.  Truth be told Wolverine has always been one of my favorite X-Men characters.  So I'm really looking forward to seeing the movie.  Here's the trailer on youtube for anyone who hasn't seen it.  I hope you all are enjoying your week so far. 
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    My week was surprisingly good.  I've had a new rule when it comes to idiot people in public, or at work  I just ignore them.  I downloaded a NES emulator app for my phone, and that's been a good distraction from people lately.  In particular the psycho girl at my job that I felt like was stalking me at a certain point even took the hint.  I've also realized that I get along better with people a lot older than me, as opposed to people my own age.  It's always been that way for me honestly.

My parents and I have been trying to get everything ready for the Panama trip this summer.  I'm excited about leaving the country for the first time.  I need a break from Texas.  The people here put me in such a foul mood sometimes I feel like I need a vacation from this place.

I bought some new video game stuff.  I've been on a huge final fantasy kick lately (like most days), and I decided to complete some of my FF collection and get these guys.

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Also I got these because my last gameboy I bought didn't have a backlit screen so I settled for this Japanese Gameboy Advance SP in blue.  Also These 2 games, as well as Street Fighter V which isn't pictured here.  I still have a few issues with the way Capcom is marketing SFV so I'm slightly pissed off at them.  They basically thought it was a good idea to charge you for like 2 separate seasons of DLC which is criminal.  Luckily for me the Playstation store had season 1's dlc on sale for $9.99 so I went ahead and bought season 1.  I got that deluxe edition of Titanfall 2 for only $25 on ebay brand new.  I've been finding some great deals lately.  Titanfall 2 is amazing so far!  I love how they expanded on the last game, and made a one player campaign mode for this one.  

Aside from video games I've been listening to a bit of music.  I've been listening to lots of Balance and Composure, Code Orange, Anathema, Kamelot, Katatonia, Lacuna Coil, D'espairsray, Title Fight, and a few others.  

Also I heard the new Linkin Park song, and it's not what I expected from them.  I think they've forgotten they're a rock band...lol.  I mean I guess it's not completely terrible for a pop song, but it's not what I would expect from them.  Needless to say I probably won't be buying their new album.  I guess I should have predicted they would go more in this direction considering the past few singles they've been putting out.  I do like the female vocals in the song a lot more than Chester's.  If she wasn't in the song it would probably be really boring.  Chester's vocals have really gone downhill in the past couple of years.  
illusion_is_mine: (SOM: Patricia Morrison)
 This past week was exhausting.  Yesterday my family had a get together for my grandmother's birthday.  Her birthday was actually Saturday, and I called her and told her happy birthday.  She pretty happy that I called her.  My work week was exhausting, and one of our people was on vacation so we had a ton of work.  There is still that strange girl at work, but it seems she's finally getting the hint and starting to leave me alone.  A lot of times I feel like I'm misunderstood because I don't fit anyone's stereotype of what they think I should be.  I guess I'm in my own head too much.  Ah well. 

When I came home, and my family was all gathered at my house I felt a bit more exhausted.  I was overall tired from work so I just went straight to my room after speaking to everyone.  When my grandma came I spoke, and retreated back to my room to play video games.  I ended up playing Resident Evil 4 for a few hours, and then a bit of Uncharted 4 for a while.  My niece came and watched me play for a bit, and concluded that I wasn't going to win because I kept dying...lol.  

Resident Evil 4 is really creepy I have to say.  Also those zombies in that game are really smart, and always think of ways to out smart me it seems xD!  

On a side note I have been practicing guitar a bit more lately.  These are the songs I'm currently learning/working on right now.  Most of these I have really worked on, and have got the majority of the song down.  I still need to practice a bit on the rhythm for the Bauhaus song, but I think I have a good grasp of how to play it.  I really love playing that Cure song once I got it.  It's one of my favorite tracks from that album, and it's enjoyable to play. :)

Title Fight - Dizzy
Bauhaus - All We Ever Wanted Was Everything (acoustic)
Balance and Composure - Quake
Siouxsie and the Banshees - Painted Bird
Title Fight - Murder Your Memory
The Cure - A Forest

Here's a picture of my guitar by the way.  I wasn't sure if I posted it here, but there ya go. :D

As for other music stuff  how awesome was Bruno Mar's cover of Prince's "Let's Go Crazy" last night at the grammys?  He really nailed it.  <3

illusion_is_mine: (FFXV: Noctis)
 This past week was exhausting but I got through it.  It wasn't so much anything happened really, but that I'd been sick earlier this week so I had to recover.  I have a slight sinus headache today, but I did take something for it.  I'll probably rest later to fully get rid of this annoying headache.

As for other things I've been looking for a chair for my room.  Something that's comfortable that I can fold up and put away since my room is rather small.  The one I actually bought from Target looks something like this.  I haven't used it yet, but I'm mostly looking forward to using it for gaming.  I was sitting on my bed to play games, but I needed something to support my back a bit so I settled on this chair.  I'm going to use it tonight when I play FFXV, and a few other games that I've bought recently.  I also bought Resident Evil 4 which I've been wanting to check out for a while.  I've been a fan of the Resident Evil game franchise for a while now.  I would say ever since I played Resident Evil 2 on the Playstation when I was younger.  I also downloaded Fire Emblem for my android phone since it was free on the google play store.  I've been wanting to check that game out for a while now.  

Other than gaming I've been listening to music, and what not.  I've been sort of neglecting my guitar, but  I plan to fix that this week.  So far I've learned quite a few songs on guitar.  I just learned "Zombie" by The Cranberries, and "A Forest" by The Cure.  The Cure has honestly been my go to band for learning songs on guitar.  I really like their overall sound, and some of the first songs I learned were Cure songs.  I've also been listening to a little bit of K-pop, and Neo Soul type stuff.  My taste is all over the place depending on what mood I'm in.  My current favorites are Code Orange's "Forever" album, The Final Fantasy VII OST, "Peripheral Vision" by Turnover, "Ashes Against the Grain" by Agalloch, "The Sound of Perseverance" by Death, "A Kiss in the Dream House" by Siouxsie and the Banshees",  and "Coll:set" by D'espairsRay.  On a random note I noticed H&M has this Siouxsie shirt.  I was surprised that they had a Siouxsie shirt, but I guess they had a Joy Division shirt so it's not that surprising.  I kind of rolled my eyes at the holes in the shirt cause I guess they're trying to appeal to hipsters or something.  I always thought punk was about the whole DIY thing.  I mean I modified my own Siouxsie shirt, and the idea of buying a shirt with pre-existing holes has never been appealing to me.  If I want a certain look I figure I can do it myself.  But I guess today's youth lack that certain initiative that we had in the past.  

I'm still reading "Ash" by Malinda Lo, and it's getting interesting.  I've just gotten to a part where a major character was killed, and that made me a bit sad.  It happened pretty suddenly.  Either way the story is developing nicely.  
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 Yesterday was a huge bummer.  I think I caught a virus from someone at work yesterday, and I ended up feeling really sick.  I did do my 8 hour shift at work, but I went home around 2:30 pm so I could recover at home.  I came home, and took some stomach medicine, and took a much needed nap.  After that I woke up and tried to game a bit, but I didn't really have the strength to play video games for long.  I ended up falling asleep early after eating dinner.  

I'm feeling much better today thankfully.  My stomach still feels weird so I've tried not to eat anything heavy today.  I really want ice cream, and some cheese cake my mom made last night, but my stomach says no.  

Today I played Final Fantasy XV for most of the day, and ended up getting relatively far along in the game.  Noctis and crew have really grown on me so far, especially Prompto.  His carefree, happy attitude is very enduring.  Also Ignis is hilarious with his whole "Ha!  I've found a new recipe!"  proclamation in the most random of places in the game...lol.  

That aside I've also been playing Dragon Quest: Heroes (for the PS4), and Devil May Cry on the PS2.  Both games are really enjoyable.  I'd been meaning to check out the Devil May Cry series for years, but never gotten around to it until recently.  I also bought a copy of Chrono Cross for the PS1.  I've been getting into lots of rpg games lately.  I've been enjoying those type of games way more than fps games lately.  I've always been fond of games with a good plot, and an interesting story.  

Well I'm going to go try to feel better.  Later. 
illusion_is_mine: (Zelda)
 Yesterday I had to go to Jury Duty because I'd gotten a summons earlier in the month.  Most people (including myself), really hate serving on a jury here, but people acknowledge that it's a good thing to have a jury of your peers.  I was really anxious that I would get picked, and had been dreading it for a while.  So when I got there they had everyone sit in a massive sized jury room, and we waited...and waited, and waited.  My god the waiting was probably the worst part.  I sat next o some old guy who kept acting like he didn't want me to touch him for some reason, and another lady.  I'm used to older white people here being bigots so that didn't phase me one bit.  I took out my phone, and opened my NES emulator app and started playing Legend of Zelda to distract myself.  

After away they picked people for the first few trials, and then we were told we were "taking a break until 10:30", much to the dismay of everyone there.  I got up and went to the restroom, and came back.  I made sure to sit somewhere else where I wouldn't have to sit next to anyone cause (people = nope), and continued playing Zelda.  Eventually a really nice lady came and sat next to me, and asked me if I'd done this before.  I told her I had, and that I'd served on a civil trial for 3 days.  She told me she'd served on a trial for 5 days, and that she'd gotten used to the whole jury process at this point.  After the break the announcer guy tells us that we were all free to go, and then goes "Wait!  I think we have one more trial!" which was quite annoying.  I was pretty certain they would call my number since I was juror 312, and they were getting close to the 200's.  I caught a very close break when the last trial ended at number 299.  Then they called a roll call of the people that were still there, and we were told we could leave.  I was relieved  that I hadn't been picked, because the time for the last trial didn't start till 1pm, and the people that were there had to wait until then to go up to the court room.  

I left the parking garage and encounter some rude driver who came the wrong gate and proceeded to jump in the turning lane in front of me.  After the whole getting up early, dealing with everything I'd decided that I deserved to treat myself, and stopped to get myself a burger because I was hungry.  I was so glad to be home after that was over. I really hate getting picked for jury duty.  My anxiety goes into overdrive, and I just want to get the fuck outta there.  
illusion_is_mine: (DBZ - Goku)
So my day was okay.  It got off to a somewhat stressful start cause some person ran a stop sign, and ran in front of my car.  Luckily "I" was paying attention because they sure as hell weren't.  People here drive so horribly, I can't.

Most of the news media keeps talking about the inauguration tomorrow, and I'm pretty much just avoiding reading anything about it.  I've been in good spirits lately, and I won't let anything spoil it if I can help it.

My parents, and I have been getting ready for our trip to Panama in the summer.  We have to get our passports, get our money together, and some other stuff.  I found out that we're actually having a family reunion there, which I wasn't aware of.  Apparently we get to stay at a resort on a private island so that's pretty awesome.  I'm actually really excited about going since it will be my first time out of the country.

As for gaming things I've been playing lots of Bloodborne, and Uncharted 4.  Both games are really fun, but I have to say Bloodborne is super difficult.  It's not one of those games where your character moves from place to place, but more like your trying to figure out how to make your way through a town full of weird looking dead people, and creepy henchmen without getting killed.  It's easier said than done I've realized so far.  That aside I'm progressing rather well in Uncharted so far.  I was sad when his brother got killed.  Also I bought a Gameboy Advance (it looks like this) cause I've always wanted a gameboy.  I've also really been into retro games lately.  I never got to play a lot of the older gameboy titles, and some Nintendo titles even though I had an NES as a kid.  I mostly had really crappy games, and the first 3 Mario games...lol.   I really want to check out Pokemon titles, Metroid, Castlevania (which it comes with), and a bunch of the more well known Nintendo titles like Mario, Kirby, and Donky Kong.  I can't wait to get it.

Next Tuesday I have to go to Jury Duty, which I'm not looking forward to.  I really just hate all the waiting around for several hours, because who likes doing that anyway?  Either way I'll take it in stride and hope that things move along quickly, and that they don't pick me.  

illusion_is_mine: (Knuckles)
 

So I'm sure you guys are tired of hearing me talk about games lately, but I just got a new console so I'm very excited XD!  So here's a picture of everything I have so far.  I've gotten a chance to play 2 of the 3 games you see here, and I love them both!  I played Tomb Raider first which was very exciting, and has really nice visual effects.  Then I played a few other free games from the Playstation store.  

Getting a subscription for Playstation Now made me realize how expensive it can be for someone who's hardcore into gaming.  Needless to say I cancelled my subscription to Playstation Now because I figured it wasn't worth it for what I wanted to get out of my gaming experience.  For now I'll just buy the physical copies of games I want and leave it at that.  I have 2 more games that I ordered coming in probably next week.  I finally broke down and bough FFXV because the demo was super fun, and Dragonball Z Xenoverse cause I'm a huge fan of the series.  I really like the whole open world environments on FFXV.  It really enhances the overall playing experience.  I will acknowledge that the plot is non-existent, or rather not clear if you haven't seen the movie/anime adaptation, but it's still an enjoyable game to play nonetheless.  

After that I played Uncharted 4, and it looks amazing!  Half the time I can't tell whats part of the cinematic, and what's the game because everything looks so nice.  To give you an idea of how it looks here's a gif.  Read more... )
Other than gaming my parents had a new alarm system installed today, and it's very good.  We can operate it from our smart phones, which is something that is becoming more common place nowadays.

For the most part I've been enjoying my vacation from work, and playing video games mostly.  It feels good to be able to rest, and breath for a while without being stressed out like crazy.  Gaming has also been distracting me from thinking about politics which is a good thing considering all the craziness that's been going on lately.  Maybe I'm at the point where I have some sort of cognitive dissonance about how fucked up everything thing seems now.  I'm not sure, but for my sanity I'm trying not to focus on the negative.   I will try to make a post that's not about video games in the future. lol.  


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 This week has been okay for the most part with only 1 exception.  I ended up (sort of) getting scammed on ebay after seeing a refurbished PS4 for about $20.  Now you would think my common sense would kick in and tell me "If it's too good to be true it probably is", but nope.  Somehow I wasn't thinking clearly and I hit the buy button.  Now the good news is paypal is refunding me my money for this transaction, and ebay happened to have caught it was a scam rather quickly.  They emailed me and notified me that they felt like that account had been run by a third party account, and they took the item off their site.  I'm not sure why I did it in the first place, but you live and you learn.  

I decided to go with a newer bundle on amazon and used a $100 gift card to get a bit of a discount from them.  So I guess the problem was solved, and I ended up ordering a brand new bundle for about $269 minus the gift card which ended up being a decent price.  It's the bundle with Uncharted 4 on it.  I watched a youtube gamer do a play-through of that game and the graphics are really beautiful.  

That debacle aside, I'm on vacation from work this week, and I plan on doing as little as possible xD!  I found a decent copy of FFVII, and that came in the mail today so I plan on playing lots of video games.  

Aside from usual gaming stuff I've been doing a lot of sleeping lately.  My allergies have been bothering me so I ended up taking meds for that today.  My dad ended up getting stung by a bee this morning, but he didn't tell me or my mom until my mom came back home from taking my grandma to the doctor.  He doesn't tell us anything, which can be annoying.  Something like that could have been more serious, and I wish he would have told me instead of not saying anything.  He's always been that way though.

As for me I've been doing well mentally.  I've been reading a book called "The Huntress" by Malinda Lo, and it's rather interesting.  I've had it on my kindle for a while now, but I just got around to actually reading it.  It's really good, and I really like most of the characters so far.  Anyway that's all for me.  

illusion_is_mine: (CB: Faye)
 So I did a bit of early spring cleaning today, and ended up finding my credit card for my health benefits I'd been looking for!  I was like "OMG!  Now I don't have to pay out of my ass for my medication, or to go to the doctor."  My health insurance has a really pricey deductible so I was still trying to pay that down, and that made my payments for my meds, and doctor visits somewhat expensive.  I was paying out of pocket which I really couldn't afford.  This is great because my job contributes money to this particular card, and gives you incentives if you don't smoke and other things.  This means that I can use that card, and not have to spend my own money on medical expenses.  Needless to say my 2017 is getting off to a decent start.


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As for gaming this my collectors edition of FFXII came in the mail recently, and the packaging is pretty snazzy.  It comes with a bonus dvd with special features.  I've never seen packaging like this for PS2 games so I was impressed with the case xD!  

In other news I never did any recaps for my favorite albums of 2016 so I'll do it now.  I'll just list them in no particular order.I think that's about it.  If it's not here then I haven't listened to it yet.  I still have a few albums from last year that I need to listen to fully.  I like to give albums my full attention.  I can say I'm defiantly more of an album person more so than a singles person.  I really dig that Touche Amore record a lot.  It's about the vocalist's mother who died of cancer so you can really fell the singer's pain in a lot of the songs.  These are a mixture of different albums from different genres.  I just put them all there together because it's easier.  

illusion_is_mine: (OPM: Genos)
I hope you all enjoyed your Christmas. I had a really good Christmas, and I got a lot of great gifts. I received mostly clothes, and a neat bluetooth speaker that's shaped like a fancy sports car. This particular gift I bought for myself with an amazon gift card...

So I officially feel like I've gotten back into gaming again. I had some money on my amazon account so I bought a copy of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 3 for my Wii, and Final Fantasy XII for my PS2.(still waiting for it to come in the mail)  It feels good to be back into gaming again. I've played a bit of Titan Fall which is fun. I actually suck at COD at this point, but I'm getting better. I have to get using the sensor for the Wii remote. I've also been playing a few older games. I'm considering buying the PC version of Minecraft since my friend recommended playing it. I saw a few play-through's on Youtube, and it looks pretty fun.

Speaking of Youtube I have a new favorite Youtuber, and his name is Terry Song. He's a Korean American guy living in Seoul, and he does mostly reaction videos. He seems like a really cool dude. I really like his video for the Try Not to Laugh challenge so check it out here.

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Other than that I've been watching a few videos of Gamers freaking out when they loose at a video game, and it's pretty extreme. Things like them breaking the TV, or breaking the console are just really stupid to me. Most of these people are really young, and they didn't even pay for the the $400+ console they're destroying. I will never understand people getting angry at video games. I will say that I used to be somewhat like that when I was younger, but I never destroyed any of my stuff. I guess I was smarter than that. I've also noticed that they're mostly XBox users? That explains a lot actually. Anyway here's one of the videos. angry gamers inside... )
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(lol this gif is awesome xD!)  

Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates it.  My Christmas has been pretty good so far.  I hope everyone else enjoys spending time with family and friends.  I'll post an after Christmas post later. :) 
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 I took the day off work yesterday to take some much needed care of myself due to the stressful weekend.  I'm feeling much better today.  

My friend and I are supposed to exchange gifts today.  She sent me a message saying that we're still doing the gift exchange today so I'm excited about that.  I hope she likes her gift.  I bought her a gift card to a book store (she loves to read), some pikachu socks, and a few other things that I figured she would like.  I also put a cute little mini anime figure from fruits basket in her gift because I got them in an anime crate, and I didn't use them so I figured she would like it.  

As for other things I spent most of yesterday sleeping, and played a few video games.  I played a bit of Titanfall that morning.  It's very therapeutic to killed bad guys in video games when you're mad at the world.  It makes me feel like I have some control over some things in life which is reassuring.  

I also forgot to mention the one good thing that happened at work.  I received my Secret Santa gift and it ended up being really awesome.  She bought me 2 graphic novel comic books.  One of Suicide Squad, and the other of  Harley Quinn, and 2 pairs of Pajamas with face masks, as well as some really cute socks.  The person that was my secret santa is good friends with my sister so she really tried to get me something nice.  I told her thank you, and that I really liked the gift.  She was worried if I would like the comics, and I reassured her that I like comic books in general, and will literally read any comic book.  I was very pleased with my gift.  

As for music I started listening to Sopor Aeternus & The Ensemble Of Shadows, and I'm really enjoying her stuff so far!  I wish I would have gotten into her music sooner.  I'd heard a lot about her, but hadn't listened to her music until recently.  I'm really enjoying the "Children of the Corn" album quite a bit.  Her blog posts are also really hilarious.  
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 This weekend was honestly really stressful.  At work last Friday we had a Christmas Party, and exchanged Secret Santa gifts.  Apparently my Secret Santa didn't like her gift, and responded with "That's it?"  when she saw the gifts I'd bought her.  I always thought Christmas was supposed to be less about the gift, and more about the thought of giving, but apparently that was lost on this person.  Needless to say I had a lot going on last week.  My nephew's murder trial was last week, and I was stressed about that.  I also had another family member on my mother's side pass away recently.  I think because of that I got really emotional when I found out she didn't like the gift, and I cried.  I cried for about 30 minutes, and I was still at work so I was more frustrated with myself because I couldn't stop crying.  My sister saw how upset I was, and asked if she'd said anything to upset me.  

I told her it wasn't her, but what that other woman said about my gift.  I just couldn't believe that someone could be so thoughtless, and dismissive of someone's feelings to say what she said about her gift, even though I really tried to get her something nice.  I was so pissed/frustrated/angry and I guess my emotions just spilled over.  This incident has made me decide to not extend my kindness to people who aren't kind to me.  I'm so tired of being nice to people, and literally getting shit on.  Part of my depression has to do with me being bullied throughout school, and I can't stand people who treat other people horribly.  I probably won't even do the whole secret Santa thing again because of this situation.

     I did hear from a coworker that people on night shift got the same thing from some of their Secret Santa's and have talked about not participating next year.  Why are people so shitty?  I swear some people make me want to live in complete seclusion from the rest of civilization.  People mistake my kindness for weakness.  I've always been a very sensitive, considerate, and caring person and it's caused people to think they can walk all over me.  Well that will not ever happen again I can assure you. 

My blood pressure was really up yesterday and I think it had to do with that situation.  I took the day off work today to try to feel better.  I slept most of the day because I was tired.  My mom mentioned that I didn't look well so I'm glad I took the day off.  Also it was really cold this morning.  I believe it was 19 Degrees which is pretty cold for Texas.  Well that's all for now. 

My week

Dec. 12th, 2016 09:18 am
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 Aside from what's been happening in the previous post I'd say everything has been going well.  I went to the doctor last week for a follow up, and she put me on a water pill because she didn't think my blood pressure was low enough.  I'm not used to taking so much medication, but if it helps then I'm all for it.

As for the annoying girl at work I haven't seen her for the past few days so that was a relief.  

I'm glad I got most of my Christmas shopping out of the way.  I made plans with my friend to exchange gifts on the 19th so that should be fun.  I'm also off work 3 days after Christmas so I'm glad for the break.  I've been feeling somewhat anxious this past week so it will be good to have a break from the stress of day to day life, and just enjoy the holidays.  

I've also got a quite a few anime to catch up on that I bought from Rightstuf during their holiday sale.  I've been catching up on Dragon Ball Z.  I'm at the end of Season 3 right now, and it's gotten really crazy.  

As for music I've been addicted to the new White Lies album "Friends" lately.  I've initially got into them thanks to [personal profile] evils recommending a song of theirs from their first album.  This new album is a huge improvement from their last album "Big TV."  I love Harry Mcveigh's vocals so much, and their overall style.  Here are the videos for "Morning in LA", and "Take it out on me."  The latter being a bit weird lol, but I like it.  Also I just realized that the video for "Morning in LA" is a nod to Killing Joke's "Love Like Blood" music video.  I'm a huge fan of Killing Joke so I noticed it right away.  I wonder if anyone else noticed the reference.  Take it out on me...i'm in love with the feeling )
illusion_is_mine: (Siouxsie)
 So there's been this really strange girl at my job that I think is obsessed with me.  First of all this has been going on for a few months.  I initially just brushed it off, but It looks like I'll have to confront her.  The other day when I was eating lunch she sat at my table.  I didn't really care because I was looking at my phone, and minding my own business.  She says hi to me, and I tell her hi back then the next thing I know she's moving to another table.  She keeps playing these weird mind games with me, and it's really getting on my nerves.  

I've also noticed that she's started taking her breaks and lunches at the same time as me recently.  One time while I was heating up my food in the microwave she looked me up and down in a manner that made me incredibly uncomfortable.  We've never actually had a conversation, and I'm not sure why she keeps doing random weird shit to get my attention, but it's mostly just annoying the crap out of me.  I've heard her ask other people about me, and she got annoyed when I told her "I don't really talk that much", which is actually true.  To be honest I was just put off by her, and I guess I subconsciously got bad vibes about her initially.   I'm not sure what hear deal is, but for now I'm going to just try to ignore her unless she gets out of hand.  Then I'll confront her, and I won't be so nice anymore.  

Jim Morrison was definitely right about people being strange.  

Also this situation reminds me of this song a bit.  The backstory about this song is that the band's manager was apparently obsessed with Siouxsie to the point to where it was rather creepy.  She wrote this song about the situation from the stalker's POV.  

illusion_is_mine: (OPM: Saitama)
 So I figured I'd post a regular entry about what's been going on with me.  These past few weeks the weather has finally turned cold.  I for one really love the fall/winter seasons.  The only thing I don't like is me possibly getting sick.  I almost got sick a couple of days ago, but my mom basically forced me to take cold meds until all my symptoms passed.  These past few days I've been trying to avoid the cold weather, and stay indoors aside from going to work.  

I've finished most of my Christmas shopping I'm glad to say.  I also finished wrapping gifts yesterday which felt good.  I tend to put it off until the last minute, but I decided to finish wrapping everything yesterday.  Also it was really cold, and raining a lot yesterday.  Our mail man didn't show up until about 6:30 pm yesterday evening which is very unusual.  So I had to run outside in the cold, wet, and rainy weather (also it gets darker earlier so it looked later than it was), and get the mail out of the mailbox because no one else in my house wants to do it for some reason.  That aside I've been doing okay.

I've been getting back into gaming lately which is cool.  I'm playing Titanfall for PC, and I'm enjoying it a lot.  I don't have a lot of experience with PC gaming, but it's a lot more enjoyable than I expected it to be.  I also saw a bit of the trailer for Final Fantasy 15, and it looks amazing!  I used to be a huge fan of the franchise since FF7.  I'm really bad at RPG's, but I did try to play that one when I was younger.  I especially enjoyed 7 because I liked the characters, and the overall gameplay.  

Aside from gaming I've been watching the show Black Mirror on netflix, and It's really interesting.  It's like a modern take on The Twilight Zone with the focus being on technology.  I would say it's a dark, suspense, thriller type of show.  My favorite so far has been "San Junipero" from season 3 because yay for lesbian romance themes, and it was really sweet yet sad.  I also liked "White Christmas", and "Nosedive".  I highly recommend checking it out if your into shows with darker/horror type themes.  Now I'll go back to watching another episode of the show because this particular one is really interesting.  
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I've been wanting to do one of these posts for a while. So I figured I'd post about some of my current favorite modern Gothic rock, and Post-punk bands. Most people in the scene know about the older bands so I figured I talk about the more modern bands that I enjoy. I will mention that some of these bands range from Gothic Rock, to Coldwave, to post-punk, and all of the various other sub-genres in the Gothic scene. I also posted pictures of the bands in case you guys are visual people like myself.

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I hope everyone enjoyed their thanksgiving.  Mine was actually pretty good.  The only thing that really happened was my aunt freaking out because my cousin wanted to bring her new boyfriend to thanksgiving dinner.  She was pissed at my cousin because "she didn't formally introduce him to her."  So because of that she'd already decided she didn't like the guy.  They had a few words on facebook, and that was that.  She told my cousin that if she was going to show up with him then she couldn't come.  Wtf?  My sister wasn't happy about that, and told her she was being very petty.  Luckily my cousin ended up coming anyway.  My aunt left before she showed up which wasn't surprising.  

That was the only family drama we had, which was pretty good.  That aside I actually enjoyed myself, and ended up talking with my family most of the time.  I usually just stay in my room the whole time, but I was pretty sociable this time around with my family.  I think that the meds I'm taking really have been helping me with social situations, and my overall issues with anxiety.  

I've been doing a lot of Christmas shopping between this week, and last week, and I'm glad that I got a lot of it done.  I bought myself 3 video games.  Sonic Colors for my Wii, and Soul Calibur 2 for the PS2, and Titanfall for PC.  I'm trying to get back into gaming.  It's been really fun so far!  Sonic Colors is really awesome, and a lot more fun than I could have imagined.  I'm still waiting on Soul Calibur 2 to come in the mail.  The postman almost forgot to deliver several of our packages yesterday which was annoying.  He came back twice, and delivered everything which was a relief.  I bought 3 anime box from Right Stuff since they were also having a sale.  That package came yesterday.  The anime I bought were Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex the complete collection, Saiyuki the complete collection, and New Dominion Tank Police the series.  My download of Titanfall is almost done so I'm going to play that as soon as it finishes.  I'm a sucker for first person shooters.  My early experience with FPS's started with Metal Gear Solid, Max PayneGoldeneye, and Doom when I was younger.  I'd say those were good introduction to those type of games.   

I've been pretty much avoiding the news media, and politics in general for the sake of my mental health.  I'm aware of all the things that are happening, but I'm trying not to focus on it.  I've found that prolonged exposure to negative media really has a bad effect on my mental health.  It's caused me to have many anxiety attacks, and other mental health related issues.  Therefore I've been trying to find healthy alternatives to keep me in an overall positive state of mind.  It's been working pretty well so far.  Also I bought these really cute pikachu slippers.  

Well my game is almost finished downloading.  Later guys. :)
illusion_is_mine: (inuyasha)
Since I'm not sure if i'll be tied up with family tomorrow or not I wanted to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving if you celebrate it.  

I got a little bit of Christmas shopping done today with my mom.  I bought my cousin's 2 sons Avengers action figures that I'm sure they'll love, my friend some really cute Pikachu socks that were on sale, as well as my friend's mom some Harry Potter socks since I remembered she was a huge fan.  I also bought myself a few things.  I found the cutest Pokemon tank top, and some really cute Pikachu slippers.  I also bought a Darth Vader beanie that was only $3 which was a steal.  I'll have to take pictures when I get the chance.  

I finally got the check from that Insurance company, and it was what I did a little bit of my Christmas shopping with.  I'm just glad to get a few gifts out of the way.  It feels good.

As for other things I've been really stressed about the political climate around here lately.  I decided to deactivate my Facebook page for a week or so because a lot of stuff people post on there triggered my anxiety quite a bit.  I'm just so tired of all the depressing news everywhere about Trump's election, and all the horrible hate crimes that have been happening.  Since it's the holidays I figured it would be best for me to take a break from the news, Facebook, and anything else that triggers my anxiety for a while.  My blood pressure was actually up yesterday because I was stressing so much about political stuff.  I've also been having some annoying side effects from my blood pressure medication.  Mainly lots of sweating, rapid heart beat, and just feeling exhausted.  If it doesn't improve I'll notify my doctor about the side effects.  I'll probably tell her anyway since I have an appointment on the 7th of December.  

Aside from that I've been doing good.  I've been catching up on reading Red Rising, Game of Thrones, and other books.  I've been also re-watching "Record of Lodoss War", "Kino's Journey", and a few other random anime titles.  I watched a movie on Netflix last night called "Hush" due to a friend's recommendation, and it was really good.  

I helped my mom make an apple pie earlier today for tomorrow.  It turned out pretty good!  I also helped her with some of her other cooking she had to do.  Anyway I think I'm going to go do some reading.  I hope everyone enjoys the holiday.  :)

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I'm a 32 year old woman. I'm an artist, and I'm into the Gothic subculture. Things that I enjoy include but are not limited to 80's Music, Reading, Drawing, Animation, Playing bass guitar, Gothic rock, indie music, horror films, anime, comics, video games, and sci-fi novels. I don't know what I'd do without music, and art. I listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees way more than I should.