illusion_is_mine: (P5: Protagonist)
     So the show Westworld has officially got it's hooks in me, and hasn't let go.  My mom mentioned it to me last night asking if i'd ever watched it. It was the 3rd time someone asked me about it so I figured I would check it out.  I was pleseantly surprised to see Anthony Hopkins in this so that also peeked my interest.  I will also admit I have a bit of a crush on Evan Rachel Wood XD!  That being said  the show is phenomenal.  I would explain it, but the best I can do is it's like an irl role playing game where rich people go to this theme park called "Westworld" to live out their fantasies.  The "hosts" at the park are synthetic beings who start to question their existence, and then all hell breaks loose.  It's a great show, and I highly recommend it if you have HBO.

     I'm also hearing very good things about the new God of War game.  I haven't gotten the game yet myself, but I will be this upcoming weekend.  I have a day off on Saturday for my Dad's birthday so I plan on getting a little gameplay time in that day, or Friday night.  I know most people are really excited about the new Avengers movie, but honestly I'm not a huge Avengers fan.  I'm also really burned out on super hero movies tbh.  I mean I'm a huge fan of comic books, but I think there are just too many super hero movies/shows out these days, and I don't really get excited to see those type of movies/shows that much anymore.  I probably just need a break from them in general.

Here's a trailer for Season 1 of Westworld.  The show does have some graphic sexual content, and violence.  So basically a regular HBO series...lol.  
illusion_is_mine: (HQ!: Noya)
 This week was pretty good.  I had a coworker pull me to the side yesterday, and tell me that I had a beautiful voice, and that I seem to be more outgoing lately.  She said that it seemed like I had a lot to say about different things, and I seemed to know what I was talking about.  She also mentioned that I should think about doing some sort of podcasting or something where I talk about things that interest me in a broadcasting type form.  I was really surprised when she told me that.  Truth be told I have felt myself going through some personal growth, and a bit of a transformation lately.  Maybe it's because I'm getting older, and I'm not too certain, but it was good to hear somebody say something good about me.  It's something that has crossed my mind lately actually.

That being said I've been trying to steer clear of negativity, and negative people lately.  So yeah I guess I am going through a sort of transformation.  

I think what's been helping me is listening to different podcast that are very positive, helpful in giving me a different perspective on things. I believe you can learn a lot from people by listening to their experiences, and what they have to say.  

As for music stuff I bought the new Kittie documentary, and it was really interesting.  I think it's unfortunate what they had to put up with in the music industry because they were female musicians.  It was a band I was really into in high school, and it was really insightful to see all the hardships they went through as a band throughout the years.   

On to fandom things so I can fangirl about this.  Sega announced they're re-releasing an HD version of Shenmue 1, and 2 for the PS4, XB1, and PC!  They also announced a bunch of classic Sega titles coming to the Nintendo Switch.  They also mentioned as possibly porting over some Dreamcast, and Sega Saturn games to the Switch!  I'm super hype about this.  I almost bought a Sega Saturn back in the day, but ended up getting a Playstation.  I feel like there are a ton of the Saturn, and Dreamcast titles I missed out on.  I had a Sega Genesis as a kid so this is a total win for me.  I feel like there were a ton of Sega titles in general that I missed out on in the past.  So this is really awesome news.
illusion_is_mine: (HQ!: Noya)
 This past week was okay, and Happy Easter and Passover to all those who celebrated it.  I had to work, but I ended up getting off early.  My mom is still recovering from her surgery from last week.  She's doing better though.  

Okay so I want to rant about one of my coworkers that I've been talking to for a while.  I started chatting with Eric after asking him if he played a certain game series.  Little did I know he'd follow me to all my lunches, and breaks, and generally come of as annoying.  I really just talk to him to pass the time, but I get really annoyed at the fact that he says things like.
 
Him:  You should do democracy too. (He's obsessed with politics, and volunteers for local politicians campaigns, and what not.)
Me:........................

I do not like anyone telling me what I should be doing.  I'm a bit of a rebel at heart, and I don't like to be told what I 'should' be doing by people who barely know me.  Needless to say It's taken all my resolve to not go off on him a few times.  He also told me one day that I "Jump around from game to game too much.  You need to stick to one game."  Like guy, who the fuck are you?  Seriously there is no correct way to play video games.  Most people play games to unwind, relieve stress, and just chill out.  I've heard many people say that they play whatever games they're in the mood for at that time.  That's how I am.  Needless to say I don't feel like I should have to explain myself to him.  My problem is that I'm too nice, and I never respond appropriately when he says things like this.  I guess it's going to take him saying the wrong thing one day for me to go off on him.  He needs to take a cold hard look in the mirror and realize he's far from perfect.  I could easily point out many of his flaws, but I'm not that type of person.  

Basically in short he's a typical "gamer guy", and he lacks self awareness.  Most of the people at my job can't stand him, and now I see why that is.  He has a horrible personality, and he's just plain boring.  I just wish he would leave me alone.  I always seem to attract people that I'm not interested in at all.  I also blame him for the crush avoiding me probably assuming I'm just like him (which I'm not.)  I don't know, but I wish he would leave the hell alone.  I liked it better when I sat by myself at lunch, and no one bothered me...lol.
illusion_is_mine: (Default)
A lot of things have been going on lately.  My mom is having surgery to have her gallbladder removed this Thursday so I'm very anxious about that.  She'll need 2 weeks to recover so I'm going to be doing the grocery shopping for the month.  I'm not really looking forward to that since I hate grocery shopping, but we gotta eat so yeah.  My grandma also had a minor surgery yesterday that I just found out about.  She's doing okay, and recovering at home. 

My mom's birthday was this past Saturday, and my sister had a cookout for her on Sunday.  It was pretty fun, and it was great seeing the family all together again. :)

I was supposed to go to the dermatologist today, but I called and cancelled due to a really bad thunderstorm coming through this morning.  The weatherman mentioned flooding, and a bunch of traffic issues so I decided to reschedule my appointment.  

Besides all the personal stuff going on I'm almost at the end of Super Mario Odyssey, and I gotta say I've been enjoying it quite a bit.  I really does remind me a lot of Super Mario 64, and how huge of a leap forward that was for the franchise.  I've also started playing Persona 5 again.  It drags in places, but the story is very interesting.  I finally feel like I'm getting to the point where the story is picking up.  I've also been playing Fallout 3, and Nier Automata.  My coworker says I jump from game to game way too much, but really I just play what I'm in the mood for at that moment.  I don't think there's a particular way to play video games.  Especially since playing games for me is a way to unwind, and shut out the world.  For certain games I usually have to take a break from them for a while or I'll get burned out on the (ei: Fallout 4.) I also purchased Farcry 3 from the xbox marketplace for my 360 since it was on sale.  I was initially looking at getting Farcry 5, but here lately I've been avoiding buying games at launch at least until they patch all the bugs, and everything.

As for music I've been listening to lots of Chelsea Wolfe, Fleetwood Mac, Lacuna Coil, and Turnstile.  A weird combination I know, but my music taste is very much reflected in my mood, and how I'm feeling at the moment.  

Well that's all for now.  Here's a trailer for Farcry 5 since the plot of this game is sort of interesting.



illusion_is_mine: (Default)
     This week was good actually.  I had a weird depressive episode at the end of my shift yesterday, but that does happen to me every so often.  

     Speaking of work one of my coworkers I talk to has been sort of annoying me lately.  His name is Eric, and he started following me around to my breaks and lunches after I asked him a simple question (I asked him if he played any Dark Souls games.)  Apparently the guy is a hardcore gamer, and enjoys hanging out with me.  It's normally not a problem, but he has some personality traits that annoy me just a bit.  That being said I guess it's better than eating lunch alone...lol.  He's an okay dude to talk to at work anyway.  

     Needless to say I found out the reason my ex-crush was acting the way he was because he doesn't like Eric at all.  I guess since I hang out with Eric he had a problem with it?  I don't know honestly, but I never realized how petty some guys could be until this situation happened.  It's like dude I can hang out with whoever I want.  Especially considering the fact that the crush doesn't really talk to me much besides polite formalities.  If he likes me he should just say so, and stop with the annoying passive aggressive behavior one day, and being overly nice to me another.  I can't deal with that type of behavior at all.  My coworker said she heard him mentioning that he doesn't have a gf so I'm not sure what the truth is with him.  Basically it's team no one right now.  I'll just keep doing me, and if people don't like it then that's on them. 

     Quoting Marina "You make be good looking but you're not a piece of art."  That's how I feel about the crush at this point.  I'm realizing even though he's good looking he has horrible personality traits, and it might be best if I just steer clear.  My friend is convinced he's a fuck boy, and she's probably right.  

     That aside I've been playing lots of Fallout 3 since I got my GOTY edition for my Xbox 360.  I also bought the Mass Effect Trilogy and decided to start that series properly by starting in order.  

     I'm finally going to see Black Panther tomorrow with my mom.  I'm excited!  Especially after hearing how great of a film it is.  I guess that's all for now.  Also yay for "Get Out" winning best screenplay at the Oscars last night.  It deserved it because it's a great film. :)
illusion_is_mine: (Robert Smith)
     This week has been pretty good so far.  As for me personally I've been doing okay.  I've had a few of stressful thoughts here and there due to my anxiety, but I'm getting through it.  My stress is mostly due to the guy at work that I had the crush on.  He doesn't really talk to me anymore, and I can't figure out what exactly I did.  That being said I think it's getting easier to deal with it each day.  I'm not going to let it get to me.  I've been listening to a bunch of different music lately. I decided to try out some folk, and just a few older albums that I'd been meaning to listen to.  The music I've been listening to has been helping me sort of calm my mind a bit.  I've been listening to more acoustic/folk style stuff with a few other things thrown in there.  These are the albums I've been enjoying lately.

     I like most of them so far. I still have to really listen to that Venom record, but all the others I managed to listen to. The Velvet Underground is fantastic, and highly underrated I think. I have a CD copy of "White Light White Heat" somewhere in my CD collection ,and that's when I first got into them tbh. That Nick Drake album is so relaxing and wonderful. I think after I acquired my acoustic guitar it helped me start to get into other music that I probably wouldn't have checked out previously.  That Leonard Cohen album has some really fantastic lyrics.  

     In other news I've been playing lots of Fallout 3, and I've been enjoying it quite a bit.  I miss the RPG elements in the old Fallout games.  The lack of RPG elements is one of my many issues with Fallout 4.  Well that's it for now.  


illusion_is_mine: (Sandman: death)
      This week was okay.  My coworker came back to work last week so I don't feel so overwhelmed.  I actually made a new friend at work who loves gaming as much as I do.  We mostly hang out during our lunches, and breaks and just talk about gaming stuff.  

    Speaking of gaming stuff I bought Monster Hunter World lasts week after I got paid.  It's my first MH game, and I'm really enjoying it so far.  It was a lot to take in at first, but I'm getting used to the controls, and overall gameplay.  My friend has a bunch of the MH games on the 3DS so she's been helping me with any questions I have about the game series.  I've also been playing lots of Nier Automata, and Dark Souls II as well.  My new friend Eric was the one who told me to finish Nier.  He's a PC gamer, and he said it was currently his favorite game last year.  After I started playing it again I really do see why he loves it.  It's a really beautiful game with a fantastic soundtrack.  I wanted to get the vinyl edition of the soundtrack, but the price was a bit more than what I wanted to pay so I decided against it.  I have the digital edition of the soundtrack on my computer for now.  

      My iPod classic is dying so I bought a new mp3 player through Amazon.  I'm supposed to get it today so I'll let you guys know how I like it.  It has bluetooth capability so that's pretty neat.  I decided to move all my music to another music player that isn't iTunes so I could transfer some music to it.  

    On another note I've been practicing with my new guitar.  I'm currently learning "Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac, because I've always liked the melody to that song. 

     Anyone else hyped for the new Black Panther movie coming out in a week?  I won't get to see it opening week, but I'll probably go see it the following week.  trailer )
illusion_is_mine: (Haikyuu!! - Hinata)
Well this week was exhausting tbh.  I've been sort of an emotional roller coaster here lately, but after having a nice heart to heart with my mom, and sister I'm feeling a bit better.  I found out my crush indeed has a girlfriend through my sister.  I'm just glad that I know for sure now.  I don't mind seeing the him at work, but at this point I'll take it in stride.  If he wants to be my friend that's cool, but I won't go out of my way to befriend him at this point.  If it happens it happens, if not I'm not going to beat myself up about it.  I'm actually sort of glad I found out before I got to know him that he has a girlfriend.  At least I know for sure now, and I don't have to wonder.

On a positive note both my coat, and jacket came today and I really love them both.  I'd been intending to buy a winter coat for a while now, but I hadn't really gotten around to it until now.  We've been getting some really cold days so I figured I needed one.  I have coats, but they're sort of worn out so I needed a new one.  I love this one because it's comfortable, and it's meant to keep you warm when it's really cold.

That aside I've been playing lots of Nier Automata since I realized I hadn't come close to finishing it.  My coworker was talking about how much he enjoyed the game, and told me I should finish it.  I'm glad I started playing it again though.  The story is really interesting, and I'm looking forward to seeing how it plays out.  I've also still been playing Assassin's Creed Origins, as well as Dark Souls II.  Despite everything that happened with the crush I have been making other friends at work.  I guess when one door closes another one opens.  Also my sister is convinced that I need to get a puppy which isn't a bad idea tbh.  I'm considering it.  
illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: Vault Boy)
 So I want to talk about my situation with the guy I have a crush on at work.  Which honestly is a non-situation, but being my anxiety-ridden self I'm making it more than what it is.  For the past few days he hasn't been speaking to me which I find sort of strange.  I'm not sure if I come off as sort of distant when I talk to him, but it's not because I want to be.  It's definitely my social anxiety.  I sort of freeze up when he confronts me, and I never know what to say.  My mom gave me some pretty good advice which was to treat him like everyone else, and then the nervousness would dissipate some.  So when I go to work this week if he doesn't say anything to me I'll speak to him, and ask him how he's doing.  I'll try that and see if it works.  

Honestly, I hate feeling like this because it's the sort of thing that keeps me up at night.  I never want to feel like I'm being mean, or rude to people.  It effects me on a deeper level.  

On a lighter note, I've been playing lots of Fallout 4, and Borderlands the Pre-Sequel lately.  I realized that I needed to finish the main quest on FO4 so I started playing it again.  I bought the season pass a while back so that increased the amount of things I need to do in game.  Overall I'm enjoying it though.  Fallout has easily become one of my favorite game franchises.  I'm a sucker for anything post-apocalyptic related anyway.  I also need to finish Fallout 3, and New Vegas as well. 

Well that's all for now.  Here have a song. :)


an update

Jan. 16th, 2018 09:39 am
illusion_is_mine: (Angel Sanctuary)
 This past week was very exhausting because I had to work overtime.  It will pay off financially, but next month should be a bit more relaxed for me I think.  

As for other things I've been playing lots of Dark Souls 2, and that game is definitely a challenge.  I'm finally understanding the mechanics of the game, and how to level up and what not.  The 2nd boss in that game is really challenging so I've decided to take a break from it.  Since they're remastering the first Dark Souls game, and it comes out on my birthday I'll wait until then to pick it back up again.  I've heard a lot of people really don't like DS2, and after playing it a while I understand why.  

I've also been listening to a lot of music.  Mainly my usual gothic rock, post-punk, and metal stuff along with a bit of Japanese indie.  I also heard the singer of the Cranberries, Delores O'Riordan, passed away yesterday.  I'm not a huge fan, but I did learn "Zombie" on guitar so I was sad to hear that.   I might make it a point to go back and listen to their albums.  As for other stuff I've been listening to The Gathering, Chelsea Wolfe, Pianos Become the Teeth, Nine Inch Nails, BTS, Epik High, and Citizen.  

Since I mentioned the Cranberries I'll post this awesome video/song.  I really need to listen to more of their stuff.


Hello 2018

Jan. 1st, 2018 12:04 pm
illusion_is_mine: (Fire Emblem)
     Well hey dw long time no see.  I don't post on this nearly as much as I should, but I think I've gotten out of the habit of blogging as often as I used to.  Happy New Year to you all.  My holidays were actually pretty good.  I got a really cool acoustic guitar from my dad, and a new tablet.  I also bought tons of video games that I really need to get into.  I was supposed to go in to work this morning, but it was below freezing, and the roads were awful this morning so I called in.  I hope everyone has a great 2018 considering how much of a mess 2017 was for a lot of people.

I've decided not to do a new years resolution this year.  I'll just try to be the best me that I can be, and be kind to everyone.  I like how the Black Mirror official twitter put it in this tweet.


Here's some music for your enjoyment.  They played this song after the end of the Black Mirror episode "Hang the DJ", and I it was awesome.  I've been on a Smiths kick lately so enjoy.  Morissey's dancing is so bad in this...lmao.


 

illusion_is_mine: (Default)
 Well Christmas is next week.  I'd apparently scheduled a doctor's appointment for today, and completely forgotten about it.  Considering that I scheduled it before my trip to Panama that's understandable.  I ended up cancelling the appointment because who wants to go to the doctor a week before Christmas anyway?  And also the weather looks rather crappy today, and I hate driving in fog.  

As for other things my crush is apparently very witty, and funny.  Our system was down at work on Saturday, and so in usual Nick fashion he's walking around the whole time.  He see's me and my other coworker sitting at a table in the break room looking pretty bored, and he goes "You guys were sitting there the last time I came through here.  You should get up and scratch or something."  lol.  He seems like a fun guy, and I'm just going to taking things slowly right now.  

I discovered this cover while I was browsing youtube over the weekend, and it's really nice.  It's a Christmas song so it fits the theme.  I hope everyone has a great Christmas, and happy holidays in case I don't post before them.  

illusion_is_mine: (DBZ - Goku)
 Yestersday my friend and I went shopping, and she let me pick out my Christmas gift.  She ended up getting me Assassin's Creed Origin for the PS4, and this really cute BOTW Link nendoroid. Needless to say I'm going to be pretty hyped when I open that gift!  We're supposed to exchange gifts the day after Christmas.

After that we headed to the local used book store, and I ended up picking up a couple of really interesting books. The most interesting book was this one about abandoned places in Japan.  I love how each page had a description of the people who lived in this places, and exactly what went on there, and possibly why they left.  I'm a huge history nerd so I've always been fascinated with old buildings.  The photos so are gorgeous.  Here are a few pics of some of them with my phone.  abandonded japan pics )




Afterwards we went to a local seafood place had lunch, and talked mostly.  She's been having a hard time adjusting to her new job, and she's also been dealing with some serious family issues.  That's the main reason I haven't seen her since May.  She's been working tons of overtime, and she's been under a lot of stress.  I told her it was understandable, and that I was glad to be there when she needed me.  She talked for a while, and it made me realize how everyone just wants someone to vent to every now and then.  That we all need that.  I told her about everything that was going on with me, and we decided to call it a day.  

We then headed back to my house, and played a bit of Mario Kart on the Switch, and I showed her a few games I was playing currently.  After that I dropped her off back home, and told her I had a great time.  It was really nice to catch up with her, and hang out together since it had been a while since we last saw each other.  

Last but not least here's a band I discovered this morning thanks to Revolver Magazine's twitter posting about them.  I'm digging their sound overall.  They call themselves Cholo goth which sort of made me lol, but whatever works for them I guess XD!  


illusion_is_mine: (TR: Lara Croft)
 I finally decided to upgrade my laptop to Windows 10 from Windows 8.1.  I'm liking the interface so far.  It looks so much better than 8.1 in terms of overall aesthetic.  I also plan on upgrading the ram on this thing.  That's something I've been intending to do for a while, but I've just now decided to go ahead and do it.  

That aside my friend and I are planning on having a day of checking out video game stores, and going to the movies on the 11th of December.  She told me she would buy me a new game for my Christmas gift so you know I'm pretty hyped about that.  We haven't really hung out since May, and she has a very demanding job (she's a 911 Operator.)  So I'm really looking forward to seeing her. :)

In other news I bought Xenoblade Chronicles 2, and I've been really enjoying it so far.  I've seen people complain about how it looks in handheld mode for the Nintendo Switch, but I think it looks fine.  Sure it doesn't look as good as Doom, or Breath of the Wild, but I think it looks good enough.  It looks great in docked mode anyway.  Also I'm loving the controls, and overall gameplay.  The only thing I really hated immediately was the English VO.  The character that voices Rex in English doesn't really suit him at all.  That being said I decided to download the DLC for the Japanese audio, and play it in Japanese with subs. 

I've also been listening to lots of music, and practicing guitar a bit.  Here's a band that I really like that I discovered recently thanks to post-punk.com.  Also a few links to a few other songs I've been enjoying.Read more... )
illusion_is_mine: (Fallout: Vault Boy)
I'm really not a fan of holidays to be honest.  Mainly because there's so much preparation involved, and overall stress that is going to the store, and getting food, and cooking.  I also think it's a combination of having to look after my mom, and doing all the cleaning, and cooking.  My dad helps, but he's pretty clueless when it comes to a lot of housework stuff.  For instance I had to show him how to wash his clothes.  It wasn't a problem, but I guess I figured he already knew.  It turns out he'd never washed clothes before so I tried to explain everything as much as I could.

Today at the store some lady kept standing right on the back of me when I was in the check out line.  I gave her sort of a "wtf are you doing?"  look, but for some reason she never moved.  So I moved as much as I could.  To be honest the lady was pissing me off.  I don't get why people are so horrible, and shitty around holidays.  Human decency doesn't go out the window just because you decided to buy stuff at the last minute.  I swear people get on my nerves.

That being said I have a few family members over right now, and they're cooking stuff for tomorrow.  I'm making the ham so it's boiling on the stove at the moment.  I'll be glad when Thanksgiving is over so things can get back to normal.  The older I get the less I enjoy holidays.  


updates

Nov. 13th, 2017 09:37 am
illusion_is_mine: (Angel Sanctuary)
Well this week was very exhausting. I had to work Monday, and I was a straight up zombie all day...lol. All that aside I haven't worked up the courage to talk to my crush yet. I've been dealing with my anxiety, and how exactly I'm going to go about it. He's so chill though that he seems like he would be easy to approach.

My mom is having her foot surgery tomorrow, and I'll be on cooking and cleaning duty for a while.  I think i'll be okay.  I'm not the best cook in the world, but I can whip up some decent meals when I try.  She'll be laid up for about 2 weeks so I have to make the ham for Thanksgiving.  We're having Thanksgiving at our house so I'll have to clean up as well.  My mom asked people to help me clean up but we'll see how that goes.  I also have to work the day after Thanksgiving which kinda sucks, but what can you do.  

In other news anyone heard about the singer of the band Brand New apparently outed as being a total creep, and preying on underage girls? I will admit I didn't see that one coming. Although some of their earlier lyrics always rubbed me the wrong way. 
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illusion_is_mine: (Haikyuu!! - Hinata)


I finally received my pre-ordered copy of Super Mario Odyssey for the Switch this past Friday. I played it a bit, and my cousin showed up with her kids, and I let her sons play 2 player mode with the joycons. They had a complete blast, and actually got further than I did when I was playing it. I called in sick to work today because I'm feeling sick, and under the weather so I decided that I would make a day of playing it today. :)

My dad just informed me this morning that he bought me a blue acoustic guitar for Christmas! I'm pretty excited to get it since I've been lowkey wanting an acoustic guitar since I started playing guitar. It would be perfect to practice on during the day since it's an acoustic. My mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas, and I've been trying to decide. I think I want a decent gaming chair with back support so I could have something comfortable to sit in while I'm playing games or doing whatever.

Halloween is coming up, and I'm excited since I'll be off work this time. I don't really dress up or anything, but I love to have a marathon of horror movies on that day. I also might make a special post of some of my favorite albums to listen to on Halloween since my record collection has grown quite a bit. It will consist of Christian Death, Bauhaus, Siouxsie and the Banshees to name a few.

Also anyone listened to the new Epik High album yet? It's fantastic, and really reminds me of their old stuff. It's a lot more somber than the last album. I do like it a lot more than Shoebox, and I enjoyed Shoebox quite a bit. I'll probably be picking up a physical copy when I can. Here's a video of one of the songs.Home is far away... )
illusion_is_mine: (link 2)
Last night I played a round of Dark Souls 2, and the game completely obliterated me.  I was really trying to learn about how the leveling up works, the inventory, and overall combat.  Overall it was just a practice run, but It really makes me realize how long it takes you to get better at that game overall.  I'll be taking a break from it since I pre-ordered Super Mario Odyssey for the the Nintendo Switch, but it was good to get some practice in.  

I did manage to take Mass Effect 2 back to get a refund on Saturday to Half-Priced books. I ended up picking up Killzone (PS2), and 2 CD's: AFI's "Sing the Sorrow" since I'd been intending to buy it for years, and never gotten around to it until now, as well as MeWithoutYou's "Pale Horses".   I also ordered Trivium's "The Sin and the Sentence" from Amazon.  

Since I read about this anyone hear about Jessicka Addam's from Jack Off Jill's FB post basically saying that Twiggy Ramirez a.k.a. (Jeordie White) of Marilyn Manson, and a Perfect Circle raped her while they were dating?  I thought i was very heartbreaking.  I sort of had an idea since she indicated it in a few JOJ songs, but I had no idea what actually happened.  My heart goes out to her, and any victims of sexual assault.

Speaking of that one of the huge gaming forums Neo-Gaf shut down recently because apparently the site owner was accused of sexual assault.  Apparently most of the mods jumped ship after the news was released, and many people who frequented the forum asked to be perma-banned.  I mainly just lurked on the gaming news side of that forum, but never joined.  I heard it was really hard to join anyway because they had very strict requirements for joining.  I'm glad I never did after hearing about these allegations.  They were also a bit of an echo chamber when it came to certain topics.  They would ban people for having different viewpoints from the mods which is pretty idiotic.  I sort of understand why they were so strict, but it got ridiculous after a certain point, and then this happens.  

I do hope they out all these sexual predators in the entertainment business though because it's just horrible how often this happens.  Really it happens everywhere, but you get what I mean. 

Today I'll probably play a few games, listen to music, and just chill since it's Monday.  I'll catch you guys later.  
illusion_is_mine: (The Crow: Eric Draven)
    Our relatives from Colorado are visiting this weekend, and they're gone out with my mom to a bunch of places I guess.  I don't know but I'm still very salty about how they treated us when we went to Panama this summer.  I know I shouldn't hold grudges, but They basically left us hanging in a foreign country, and had a guy basically screw us out of a lot of money for transportation, among other shady things. 
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much better than their last record.  :D

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     My, and I went to the bookstore yesterday, and I found a couple of finds.  I got KMFDM's "Nihil" and a used PC copy of Mass Effect 2 with a working serial number for about $10, and an XB1 controller to use on my PC. 

     I mentioned to my mom about how stand-offish I realized everyone is now-a-days.  Especially younger people close to my age.  I walked in the CD/LP section, and this guy had earbuds in.  I mean I get wanted to be alone or whatever, but I hate how no one talks to anybody anymore.  I say this as someone with social anxiety because I'm realizing that it's a societal issue.  If no one communicates with anyone how will people be able to find common ground?  It's just something that's been bugging me lately.  That's why I mentioned it.  I've also heard people who come to Texas for the first time mention how "nice" everyone is here.  I don't see it myself, but maybe where they're from people are worse?  Honestly I think that's horrible, and people need to be more open to each other.

That aside I had a good shopping trip with my mom, and it was an overall peaceful day.  

On a side note I think I have a crush on this guy at work.  He just started working there about a few weeks ago.  He's really nice, and he smiled at me once.  That's what started it really...lmao.  He's really cute, and he doesn't seem jaded, and angry like most of the other people at my job.  He's got a whole different vibe about him, and I think it's great.  Hopefully I'll be able to work up the nerve to talk to him. :/

Right now I'm testing the desktop computer in our living room to see if I could get it to run Mass Effect 2 on it.  I was able to get it to run on my labtop, but it had some issues so I figured it would be better to test it on the other computer since it has a better graphics card installed. We'll see how it goes since I'm installing it as we speak.   It seems that I couldn't get the game to run probably on our other computer, and doing a few quick searches I found out that a lot of people were having trouble running that game.  Either way I'm taking it back, and getting a refund.  

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I'm a 32 year old woman. I'm an artist, and I'm into the Gothic subculture. Things that I enjoy include but are not limited to 80's Music, Reading, Drawing, Animation, Playing bass guitar, Gothic rock, indie music, horror films, anime, comics, video games, and sci-fi novels. I don't know what I'd do without music, and art. I listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees way more than I should.